Monday, July 16, 2012

Getting Some Focus

1 Corinthians 10:23


The Believer’s Freedom

23 “Everything is permissible”—but not everything is beneficial. “Everything is permissible”—but not everything is constructive.

Goodness gracious!  I have one of the most addictive personalities that ever was!  I can't go inside of a Chuck E Cheese without losing my ever loving mind trying to win tickets in a kid casino!  I remember by grandaddy bringing home his chips from AA meetings when I was a teeny tiny little girl. I saw some bad examples growing up as to what alcohol can do to a person and I decided I was to never try it or I would have been a full blown alcoholic!  I'm talking sucking back the cough syrup alcoholic.  I can't tell you the relationships that ended with me because the person I dated was drinking alcohol. When I began to date Rod (he was buck wild before we met...I met him through the doorways of our church home) he thought he would make my roommate and I a dessert.  We went to Winn Dixie to buy stuff to make spaghetti and he was going to buy some rum (I think) to make banana fosters?????  I'm not sure if I am even saying that right.  I literally panicked when he thought that was an option for us.  He said the alcohol would burn NO! NO! NO! NO! NO way was I about to make that purchase. I wigged out y'all.  I have come a mighty long way as far as now having zeal coupled with knowledge and not just zeal and not just knowledge...those two need to come together or you will just appear to be a legalist to the masses.  No condemnation to anyone this is just my conviction because I know how bent I am on being compulsive.  I don't half way do anything.  Anyway, I didn't marry a guy I met at a bar and the whole thing still stands...we just don't need anymore obstacles in our marriage then we have already had.  Besides I have had so many curve balls thrown at me that I would probably use alcohol to medicate me into an early grave.  OK breathe now!  I'm just needing you guys to get the picture of my personality.  I eat the same foods daily.  It's a mighty good thing that I started walking with Jesus a long time ago because I am flat out addicted to Him.  I have not gotten over Him and pray I never will.  I want so bad to be found faithful by Him.  I want to finish this race even if I am crawling to the finish line I wanna go strong! 
Let me tell you I have been begging God to revive me.  I have been asking for that heart that is totally whole toward the Lord.  Not divided.  I hate to be lukewarm and I know the Lord doesn't want that for His children.  I'd rather someone come out and tell me they hate me or love me but PLEASE for heavens sake don't tell me you are indifferent toward me. 
I have been SO convicted about the fact that each of us have a calling in our life.  We are going to have to be intentional about fulfilling it and it will also not come without cost or without warfare...but one thing I know...I'd rather be in the fiery furnace with Jesus showing up then living a life that doesn't amount to anything.  I don't want to just be a blot on the timeline because I wandered around living for what is so cheap, falling by the wayside like the Israelites that fell in the wilderness. 

Psalm 90:12 Teach us to number our days aright,
that we may gain a heart of wisdom.

Anyway, social media is so good in so many ways but it is such a distraction to me.  So, I had to just straight up deactivate Facebook and straight up delete...wait for it...Instagram (GASP)! 

So, you will see more of me because as I get focused on doing what it takes to seek Him and live out the things He has equipped me for I won't just be throwing my time in the trash. The enemy will keep us distracted if he can and it will lead to purposelessness.  So, for those of you who can take stuff in moderation I wish I was one of you!  For me though it's just time to sober up from the distraction of social media. 
I learn so much daily and it's not just for me.  It's for the whosoever that I come in contact with or the whosoever may read something I have learned.  I am drawing a line in the sand and driving a stake in the ground that I am going full force after Jesus and throwing off the things that hinder and entangle progress. 
I love 1 Corinthians 12 because it is so clear that one part of the body of Christ can not function without the other and if we are living in mediocre-ville like I have been lately we are robbing part of the Body. 

I am a runner and I am trying to get back on the track and return wholeheartedly from half-heartedness.  I want to glorify Him and make Him known...I'm pretty sick of Me! It's nauseating.  Also, my personality is one that easily gets into trouble so I am just setting some boundaries for myself since I was just straight up abusing my time.  We don't have long here. 

Hebrews 12:1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.


It's my responsibility to deal with my junk before the Lord.  No one can do it for me and no one can fulfill the calling on your life or mine but you.  I can't change a soul but I can come before Jesus and be changed.  Praise Him. 

I don't want to squander anymore time than I already have.  Lord help me! 


Isaiah 50:7

New International Version 1984 (NIV1984)

7 Because the Sovereign Lord helps me,
I will not be disgraced.
Therefore have I set my face like flint,
and I know I will not be put to shame.




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