Monday, March 10, 2014

A victim or an overcomer? It's up to you.

A mini novella for those 3 of you that will read something longer than a minute: I keep thinking about life being the sum total of choices. Some choices may have been made for you that were good or bad. Some it you may have had to grow up fast, suffered at the hands of cruel people, faced abuse or neglect, rejection or worse apathy. Some have suffered long with loss, financial difficulty, loneliness, depression, longings that have gone unfulfilled, some have sordid or sinful (don't we all) pasts that they feel branded by. We wouldn't have enough time or space to list it all. However, what will you do with that now? Will you remain a victim and grow bitter? Because really it is a choice and knowing Christ and taking hold of Him and following Him is the only path to lasting and true liberty of the soul but it's a choice. You can choose to hold onto the past of what so and so wasn't to you or even how the church or Christians have let you down. Let me say, if I was focused on people or the church I'd have sadly turned away from Christ on account of them because we (myself included) are so deeply flawed and yet we will all give an account. My daughters teacher gave the class an assignment. She gave each one a dollar and read to them the parable of the talents and they were to come back after an allotted time and see what they did with the dollar. I'm not at all boasting about my child but she caused me to humble myself when I saw her scraping together ALL of her money to turn in toward missions $52.60 and she even wanted to make sure where it went. That's certainly not what I would have done when I was 8. However, she came home and said one kid spent their dollar. It was such an illustration to me. We have this one life here and are we going to be victims? Are we going to lay down in defeat? Or perhaps would we see our need for Christ? Our need to forgive even if it doesn't mean reconciliation... Will we see that He is life and the length of our days and not a number on a priority list? He's it! Will all other idols be dethroned in your life? It's a choice. We can choose to reject Him or become a disciple of His. He came as fully God and fully man and of course was a Jewish Rabbi so Rabbis had followers and they went where the rabbi went and stayed where He stayed and covered themselves in the dust of their feet. They strung pearls as they listened to His teaching and passed along teaching by oral tradition. But just like Judas, many may profess Christ and yet never put feet to their faith. Never have fruit. Faith without deeds is dead and so many also will not open their bible and know Him for themselves. It takes time, commitment and a life of worship. You can't rely on people who peddle Jesus for personal gain. I can't help but think about something I heard Pastor Harry Reeder say about the judgment seat of Christ and how the sheep and the goats will be there (believers have no condemnation but will receive reward or suffer loss) however the goats will be separated and will suffer eternally as they chose not to live for Christ here and won't live with Him for all of eternity. Y'all that scares me to death. Not because I'm concerned over my salvation as there is nothing I'm more certain of in all of life...but for those who would rather live for this life and suffer for all of eternity. So many think of what they have to give up like God is the great killjoy of the cosmos and what does it profit a man to gain the whole world yet forfeit his soul? I remember standing at a crossroads at 18 yrs old and someone asking me how did I know I was going to heaven and I said because I was a good person and went to church. The most loving thing that person could do was tell me the truth. We can't earn our salvation. Our salvation is by faith alone in Christ alone but just like the disciples when Jesus told them one of them would betray Him they were all perplexed and wondered if was them? That's just it judas fit in so much so that he had them fooled. I don't believe in losing your salvation. I do believe that passage in Hebrews is so taken out of context and scripture interprets scripture so you can't base that off of one scripture. I'm not going to argue it either but I will say are you truly a follower of Christ or do you just go to church and have a form of godliness but deny it's power? To know Him and love Him means there will be fruit and why we get in our minds that we come to Him with all this baggage and then try to hide our sin or play fake it til you make it is beyond me and nonsense. We will all struggle with sin as the book of Romans speaks of in chapters 6 & 7. We should struggle so I ask (but please don't answer in written form) is there even a struggle? Are you in the faith? Do not lay down over what has been dealt to you or your past sin. By Gods grace get up!!!!! Return to Him. Repent.. Turn around from the direction you are going and turn back to Jesus if you have gotten off track. It's not too late. Use what the enemy meant for your harm to bring about much good in Jesus Name!  You are more than an overcomer!  

Monday, March 3, 2014

Don't put your trust in man or yourself either

You can't honestly or safely say you can trust others when you can't even trust your own self. Anyone who has ever seen the depths of their own sin nature knows what I'm talking about. However, I find such security in a world chock full of deceit that I can trust Jesus. There was no deceit found in His mouth and it's impossible for Him to lie and He does not change. He has no dark side. So let our gaze be not on who we can't trust or what we can't control but Who is in control and the One who sees everything. Everything is laid bare before Him to who we must give an account. Let that strike a holy fear in us as well. Truly all other ground you are trying to stand on is sinking sand apart from Him. So when your world seems to fall apart because of betrayal, or even your own doing fall on the Only Solid Rock and let Him rebuild and use what the enemy meant for evil for His kingdom and His glory. 

Not a word from their mouth can be trusted; their heart is filled with malice. Their throat is an open grave; with their tongues they tell lies. Psalm 5:9 

Nothing in all creation is hidden from God's sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account. Hebrews 4:13 

"He committed no sin, and no deceit was found in his mouth." 1 peter 2:22 

Do not tremble, do not be afraid. Did I not proclaim this and foretell it long ago? You are my witnesses. Is there any God besides me? No, there is no other Rock; I know not one." Isaiah 44:8 

1 Corinthians 2:9-10 
these are the things God has revealed to us by his Spirit. The Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God.
For who knows a person's thoughts except their own spirit within them? In the same way no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God.

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

The woman at the Well

One of my favorite encounters with Jesus in scripture is in John 4 when He meets the Samaritan woman at the well. For one of many reasons: 1) I would have been her apart from the work of the living water of Jesus in my own soul. In fact I really was just like her in so many ways looking for a man to fill me and determine my worth. Had Jesus not saved me from myself and also had I not cooperated with Him to be free...I'm convinced that I would be on my 5th husband by now give or take a few but would have been one big relational disaster of a train wreck. 2) I've coined the phrase: the

Woman at the well syndrome... When I see myself or others who have looked or are looking for love in all the wrong places, only to come up thirsty still 3) I am a woman. She was considered unclean to the Jews because she was a Samaritan. Samaritans were despised because when the 10 tribes of Israel were taken captive to Assyria, the Israelites intermarried with their great enemies and thus were despised because of the evil Assyrians and their wicked idolatry. And she was an outcast however Jesus met her in her sin. I'm so sure she felt branded like she wore a scarlet letter but tried to at least wear it well, living up to her reputation as it was all she knew. I wonder if she thought she was just meeting the next man she could move onto? 4) I love how Jesus probes and cuts straight to the heart of the matter with her, being the great Soul-ologist that He is! He speaks to this Samaritan who is a woman, He exposes her sin yet doesn't condemn her but clearly gives her dignity. When we face God over our sin, He clothes us with robes of righteousness and removes our filthy garments...we can't face man, without facing Him first, and walk away with a shred of dignity. 5) she like us can't cut the bull with Jesus. He told her everything she'd ever done! By having our sin exposed to the light we can receive forgiveness for our sins and repentance. Shame is satans game. Jesus doesn't shame us. He shows us our need and offers salvation found only in Him. There is something so freeing that we can't keep it to ourselves after encountering Him. Especially, if we realize the quarry from which we have been hewn and how destitute we are in are wandering. How thirsty we've been searching for something or someone or anything that will fill us up, but never being satisfied. We sometimes think that maybe this is it...this is the thing that's going to do it for us and by the time we are in deep we realize we've wreaked even more havoc on ourselves and are as empty as ever. 

I love though that He is still the lifter of our heads. I wonder if she was able to look Him in the eyes? However, she met the Messiah at that well and I wish I could go into the geographical part of it and this not be even longer ;). He was tired and thirsty with the physical limitations of an earthly tent. He was still fully God but fully man. He was tempted in every stinking way that we are yet was without sin. Yet He pursued her and pursues us still. He meets us in our sin and great need. I'd like to suggest something to those of you with unrealistic expectations of men. Jesus is the Rider on the White Horse not your man or the man you think you are looking for. Drop some of your expectations that are so lofty and put them in Christ. No one can be Jesus to you but Jesus. Let others off the hook and I'm not talking about settling or abuse but only Jesus ruling from the seat of your emotions. He will not share His glory with another. 

Finally, I love that where the spirit of The Lord is there is liberty. She faced Him and was able to run and tell others because of the freedom of knowing someone knows you fully, forgives you, loves you unabashedly, and longs for you to come to Him. 

Jesus knows me this I love! 

Friday, February 7, 2014

Today if you hear His voice do not harden your hearts

 This would take teaching or a blog post but I was reading this morning about all of the evil of King Manasseh and how King Josiah comes out of the evil dark tyranny that had reined and starts issuing reforms and ridding the nation of it's idolatry and how the book of the law is found and there is reform and some stability under the reign of Josiah. However, he dies and so the story goes. The people of God are taken captive and return to their evil idolatry. I'd like to suggest a few things: 1) a nation like America doesn't look to a president for moral stability. Don't expect change if you aren't going to change from within. We must seek His Face Only and as people decline morally so does that nation. 2) If you have long standing addictions or idols, removing them from your life outwardly still doesn't change the inside. We must have The Lord eradicate the yeast that leavens the whole batch of doe. To the porn addict, removing the tv and computer won't retrain your heart and mind, it won't solve your problem even though you've taken steps. You must replace the old with the new and with any sin or addiction ruling over you...if you stay running around a proverbial pit of I will not see, I will not taste, I will not touch, you will jump back in the pit of whatever or just find a new one. 3) change or transformation takes place over time and following after Christ. Not just focusing on what you aren't supposed to do. The law can't save only the blood of Christ and being washed by the water of His word. We are made clean positionally in Christ but I'd like to suggest that we have to continually be washed by the water of the word.  Not unto salvation but for purity. Until we taste and see that He is good we won't know what we are missing and will be more and more conformed to this world and may have gained some temporary victory but nothing lasting. None of us come to Christ and get it together. We assume we are supposed to and it's to our own detriment. The Lord doesn't need us to play fake it til we make it. We aren't fooling Him. We can only pose so long and be good at it before we are the dog returning to his vomit. Jeremiah had desires for love and a mate and those were never met this side of eternity but the desires didn't go away either. He had to make choices and trust the One who is able to keep us from falling and present us without spot or blemish. I have my own struggles and temptations and carnal desires and even today I have to make a choice to say no to the flesh and yes to obedience. Satan will lie like a dog to you and me and make us doubt Gods goodness and we too will question at times if He is just holding out on us or justify our own sin. That's why we must be hearers and doers because that lie will be whispered and sometimes shouted at us but departing from Gods path has always meant suffering harm. If we suffer it's not to be for doing evil. We are to be good soldiers and not get entangled in civilian affairs. I have been the biggest fool ever to my shame and yet God calls and woos us to come to Him. To bring the heavy weight of sin and to return. Change has to come from the inside out. Not just outward manifestations that produce nothing. We must bring words with our repentance and have faith with deeds. His word is the only thing that's ever held my attention or freed me from myself. There are none like Him, I know not one.

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Don't ever forget

Please don't ever ever for one second forget that as far as your fleshly desires, satan promises much and delivers so little. He has no heart and is out to destroy you. Don't forget it. He will kiss you on one cheek and then betray you. Always!!! You can take it to the bank. Gods word and His ways can be trusted. Anyone who has ever gone their own way and yet loves God will testify to this. The enemy has a plan for you and so does Christ. Greater is He who is in you than he who is in this world. This world and all that is in it and the lust of the flesh will all pass away but His word stands firm, fixed in the heavens and will never pass away. Gen 4:7 If you do what is right, will you not be accepted? But if you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must rule over it."

Sunday, February 2, 2014

He never grows tired or weary

It's so freeing to know that while we may wear others out or at times feel so needy... that we can go to the One who never grows tired or weary. We are never to needy for Him. In our finite minds we can't comprehend how One can be so vast and need nothing and no one to sustain Him...and be so attentive to each one of us at the same time. Oh the depths of the riches and knowledge of God how unsearchable are His ways...they are beyond tracing out. I'm so glad that I worship and serve a God that can't be explained away and yet He is so real and evident. Please hear it from one who knows. Don't spill what is so precious to you or your self so cheaply before people who can't fill you or redeem you or even begin to understand you. Get before Him and cry and groan and let His spirit intercede when you don't even have the words to pray.  I'll say it again: You'll never be to needy for Him. Most likely you will walk away full and not depleted. Confess, cry, repent, and return. 

"indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The Lord watches over you— the Lord is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night. (Psalm 121:4-6 NIV)

Saturday, February 1, 2014


One thing I've noticed about our human inclination is how some people are so focused on what someone else wasn't to them, and live in the past carrying around dead bones and yet they are also usually the ones that don't recognize what's in front of them or just how blessed they really are. I mean how long do you live in the past and let it rob you of current or future blessing? It's also very narcissistic as far as being so centered on yourself, and as long as you are looking to the well of human flesh and blood to fill you...Newsflash: that well is dry in terms of deriving any lasting worth or confidence.  You can only build someone up so much and you can't be Jesus to them. You can't maintain someone else's happiness or personhood or worth. And usually you will be discarded easily so guard your heart like proverbs 4:23 talks about. It's the word for guarding or tending to a garden. People that are so centered on themselves and the past or on who wasn't what to them can't have room enough in their hearts to care about others and usually are never satisfied. They are robbed of contentment and have nothing to give. It really is a thief like Unforgiveness when we won't look to The Lord to deal with our past or present. 

Psalm 105:4 Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always.

Monday, January 27, 2014

His word is alive and active and invades

It's funny how scripture invades. I was trying to remember fractions tonight and need to re school myself but of course when I'm threading this needle a scripture comes to memory. His word is alive and active. It's one thing to know it and another to walk it out! Help me Lord! Matthew 19:24 Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich person to enter the kingdom of God.”

Friday, January 24, 2014

Streams in the desert January 24th

This has been right where I've been so many times and yet lately I've received so much encouragement but The Lord has used the silent times to teach me to derive my worth from Him and draw from His word. So fitting that I would read this just now. 

But the dove found no rest for or the sole of her foot, and she returned unto him... And the dove came in to him in the evening; and, lo, in her mouth was an olive leaf (Genesis 8:9-11).

God knows just when to withhold from us any visible sign of encouragement, and when to grant us such a sign. How good it is that we may trust Him anyway! When all visible evidences that He is remembering us are withheld, that is best; He wants us to realize that His Word, His promise of remembrance, is more substantial and dependable than any evidence of our senses. When He sends the visible evidence, that is well also; we appreciate it all the more after we have trusted Him without it. Those who are readiest to trust God without other evidence than His Word always receive the greatest number of visible evidences of His love.
--C. G. Trumbull

Believing Him; if storm-clouds gather darkly 'round,
And even if the heaven seem brass, without a sound?
He hears each prayer and even notes the sparrow's fall.
And praising Him; when sorrow, grief, and pain are near,
And even when we lose the thing that seems most dear?
Our loss is gain. Praise Him; in Him we have our All.
Our hand in His; e'en though the path seems long and drear
We scarcely see a step ahead, and almost fear?
He guides aright. He has it thus to keep us near.
And satisfied; when every path is blocked and bare,
And worldly things are gone and dead which were so fair?
Believe and rest and trust in Him, He comes to stay.

Delays are not refusals; many a prayer is registered, and underneath it the words: "My time is not yet come." God has a set time as well as a set purpose, and He who orders the bounds of our habitation orders also the time of our deliverance.

Sunday, January 19, 2014

Wrestling with God

I've said this before and it begs repeating but we must take our past, the good, bad, the ugly and face The Lord over it. Even if we wrestle in the word to "feel" forgiven we must wrestle. The Lord knew every sin you and me would commit before the foundation of the world. He sent His Son to atone for our sins yet so many refuse the peace He offers or live with what feels like a Scarlett letter tattooed on their chest. When The Lord met with the Samaritan woman at the well (I could teach a whole series on that lol) He told her everything about her and she ran to tell others about this Man, the Christ that she encountered and she was excited about it!  Jesus gave that woman, a Samaritan, a woman looking for love in all the wrong places, dignity. He will change your name proverbially speaking and robe you in garments of white, not keep you bound in grave clothes. Which brings me to the point. We are NEVER EVER as much as we want to...called to forget our past. Paul was saying,  forgetting what was behind, which were his past achievements mainly. So we can't live off of yesterday's relationship with The Lord. It has to be day to day. Yet when we've wrestled with God over the past and He does not condemn us, then who can? So, again I bring up this Hebrew word picture of a man rowing in a canoe backwards (please visualize) into the future but very much focused on his past. If we don't remember the quarry from which we were mined from we will not gain a lick of wisdom and we are likely to be the fool repeating his/her folly. We can't go back and undo what's done but we can pull something beautiful from the trash and do things different the next time. With the LORD is unfailing love and full redemption.  It is for freedom that Christ has set you free. Stand firm and do not be burdened again by a yoke of slavery!! Don't ever forget the pit He has pulled you from. 

Friday, January 17, 2014

Be careful what you ask for...

Be careful what you ask for. Be careful that you don't forget The Lord and what He has done like the Israelites in the wilderness. We all have God given legitimate desires but if we seek to get them met in an illegitimate way we will suffer greatly. Make no mistake. What's scarier is how we can get what we asked for or have made an idol out of and God can send leanness into our souls. He is so merciful but we also have something called free will. We can harden our hearts against God and yes according to Romans 1 He can hand us over to the hardening of our hearts. Scares me to death! Today if you hear His voice do not harden your hearts against Him!  So be careful what you ask for esp if it has become who or what you worship.  

But they had a wanton craving in the wilderness, and put God to the test in the desert; he gave them what they asked, but sent a wasting disease among them. (Psalm 106:14, 15 ESV)

Kiss of betrayal

I'm reminded once again that the enemy masquerades himself as light. He comes in the form of whatever is the thing that will bait you. He has nothing new up his sleeve but will prey on weakness. He promises so much then just like Judas Iscariot the betrayer, he ensnares you and kisses you on the cheek and betrays you. Never forget that satan has no heart. He will kick you at your lowest and leave you to hang yourself in a field with your guts spilled open. his ways aren't worth it. #jennyisms

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Bringing calamity on yourself

In Jeremiah 2:17 the question is asked of Gods chosen people who had turned their backs on God and turned to idols and Even returned to lands of slavery like Egypt and to the vilest of their enemies, the Assyrians, as to whether or not they brought this calamity on themselves.  Why? They lacked fear of the LORD. They brought their calamity on themselves. I say that to say that I've studied a lot about pits in scripture and could go on into a 5 paragraph essay but I won't. Anyway, in Gods mercy we can  be different. He can and will deliver us from a slimy pit that we either jumped into or someone pushed us in. I love what Chuck Swindoll says when speaking of the life of Paul and how we tend to forget his gruesome past toward people of the way. Swindoll says, "The steel of greatness is forged in the pit.  It's true of all of us. Don't ever forget that, especially when you're in the pit and are convinced there's no way anything of value will come of it." God so rich in mercy is still in the business of rebuilding the ruins, bringing beauty from the ashes and also using our worst moments to help snatch others from the flames and even use our greatest failures and departures for His glory even if the school of hard knocks was not the way to go.  Until He calls you home, He has plans for you. You aren't done. Wrestle the thing out with God so that mans opinion fades and you are liberated and no longer the same. 

Have you not brought this upon yourself by forsaking the Lord your God, when he led you in the way? (Jeremiah 2:17 ESV)


Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Wising up

I get a lot of prayer requests and pray for a lot of people.  I'm not going to tell you I will and then not. Anyway, some of you know I will obsess in prayer for you. Lol. You may wish you didn't ask me to pray. But as I sit here now I'm just awash with how every inclination of our hearts is evil apart from the Holy Spirit working within us. I don't care what anyone says we are evil and wretched and capable of the most vile of sins in our natural man. If Christ is not "THE Priority" and we are left to ourselves, we will allow the enemy and our flesh (our own free will) to not only self-destruct us but to steal, to kill, and to destroy us of the life Christ died and rose to give us. Let's face it most of us have taken some big field trips to sin to learn this one the hard way. And if you think you are standing firm...take heed you stand lest you fall before you proclaim how you would never do such and such. The enemy is after your testimony since he can't have your soul if you are in Christ, as you are sealed unto the day of redemption. Anyway, I also can't stand when people say Christians are hypocrites. Why don't we call it what it is? Sinners. We will all struggle with sin until we lay these vessels down. So of course we are going to sin and miss the mark and are told to watch or better yet, to guard our life and doctrine closely. So I say all of this to say that The Lord leads those that are His.  Has He given you red flags about someone or something in your life? Do you need to get out a sheet of paper and ask Him to show you and confess your sins so you can be in fellowship with Him? If we walk in darkness, living to gratify our flesh, y'all we just can't think clearly. We get duped and the scary part is that we can be handed over to the hardness of our own heart. Not only that we can't have the assurance of integrity and stand on The Rock or a firm place when we are living a life of duplicity. You and me may think that following Gods way didn't work at times but that's a lie straight from the devil. He is for you. His commands are not burdensome. What's burdensome is when you douse yourself in kerosine and light the match to your own flame. It's scary business. Lots wife was turned into a pillar of salt because in the Hebrew terminology she looked back on sodom and Gomorrah with longing and affection over that which would bring about her destruction. She loved Sodom and Gomorrah.  So what good is salt if it loses it's saltiness? Do you want to just wander in a wasteland pining away for the affections of mankind and living out of a perpetual suitcase of unmet needs, and desperation? I'm reminded of how short this life is as i did pray for 5 people and their families who have lost loved ones in the last week and month.  We don't have long here y'all. Eternity is a long time. That's what we've got to get our eyes on! So again I say, let's not be duped. The enemy is not looking out for you. Sin desires to master you as it crouches at your door.  We are in a war. Let's quit getting entangled in civilian affairs. If God is for us who can be against us! The enemy will kiss you on the cheek, give you what you thought you wanted and betray you every-time. It's sickening. Open our eyes Lord!!! Let's go to Him and confess and repent.  We have to cling to Him in these perilous days. 

The integrity of the upright guides them, but the crookedness of the treacherous destroys them. The righteousness of the blameless keeps his way straight, but the wicked falls by his own wickedness. The righteousness of the upright delivers them, but the treacherous are taken captive by their lust. (Proverbs 11:3, 5, 6 ESV)

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Speaking from a wound.

1 Samuel 16:7
7 But the LORD said to Samuel, "Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart."

(I am a little nervous over this post because I want it to come out right)...
I have thought about something all afternoon and all while I worked tonight. So of course, I will blog about it. I was reading a Christian speakers blog today and I read something that really bothered me that was addressed to the way women dress. It was her blog and she is free to say what she wants but as I read it I felt sorry that I had thought or said some of the same things about other women in the past. I taught in the singles ministry for a long time and I can remember seeing girls that would come in my class that were dressed very inappropriately and I would comment to myself at times and sometimes speak about how we as women can cause others to stumble by the way we dress (and I specifically meant that just for them...just so you will know the condition of my heart). I spoke those words not so much because I cared about them or even how they could cause another to stumble... but in some way they made me feel insecure so it would cut me to the core. Yes, as Christians we should care about how we dress and should care about not causing another to lust after us and etc. But as I read this woman's post I thought about how we tend to address (and she was speaking of a complete stranger) what someone should not be wearing when really it is an issue of the what's in their heart and not what is on the outside. It reminds me of the verses on our is not the word's we say but the condition of our heart where our words come from.

Matthew 15:18-20
18But the things that come out of the mouth come from the heart, and these make a man 'unclean.' 19For out of the heart come evil thoughts, murder, adultery, sexual immorality, theft, false testimony, slander. 20These are what make a man 'unclean'; but eating with unwashed hands does not make him 'unclean.' "

That reminds me of the self-help trend where we focus on fixing the externals instead of having much needed heart surgery and getting to the core issue of our problems. Take an alcoholic for example. Yes, that is an addiction but usually at the root of the problem can beloneliness that needs to be filled by Christ, or maybe pain management...just drinking until you can't feel instead of dealing with your pain head on.

Women know that dressing in a seductive manner will draw attention and they will feel powerful. That is why they do it. I would say that when we dress to gain the attention of another man (that is not our husband...if you are married) that we are struggling with insecurity. Plain and simple we will use our body as a way to validate. Someone who is dressing to gain attention is seeking to be validated by the attention they get. But let me ask you this? Have you ever felt that same way? We are all tempted to yet we will so brutally look down on others. I am not agreeing with the immodest dress that is out there by any means. I am also not saying that you shouldn't be cute. There will always be someone thinner than us, prettier than us, younger looking than we are and that is just a fact. This is getting personal but one night there was a famous girl on television posing in a commercial and it was very much a commercial that was sexual in nature. I immediately shouted at the TV so Rod could hear me "She's a piece of trash!" Rod stopped me and said "Jenny, listen to yourself...she is made in the image of God whether she is living that way or shouldn't call her a piece of trash." I immediately got defensive and felt like he was taking up for her. Do you know why I lashed out at the TV and her was because I felt like she could gain the attention of my man and that I was not good enough (I am not saying he was giving her attention either) so I wanted to lash out at the wrong she was doing and degrade her as a person because in some way it made me feel small and insecure. That is the truth. The Lord knows the condition of every heart and it is His kindness that leads us to repentance. Instead of picking up stones and casting them at people we need to pray for others that may not be in the same place that we are. And in the church we should teach in love regarding the way that a Christian woman should dress, because not everyone is in the same place that we are. We don't come out and throw stones of condemnation especially when we don't even know where someone is at with the Lord. How quick we are to label people instead of praying for them. I am so guilty of this. Especially as women how many times have we judged someone else based on appearance when we've never even had the first conversation with them.
I pray that the Lord will make you and I secure enough in our relationship with Him that we can love others and find our worth in Him. Also, I hope that we can pray for others instead of looking down on them. Don't you think that deep down when we lash out about another woman that in some way we really just want to cut her down to make ourselves feel better? These are just my opinions. I have dealt with insecurity so much and I have been hurt and betrayed in this life to...but I truly want to love and pray for people who do not treat their temple as holy instead of letting it shake me and make me feel insecure. Let's face it we will all have this problem until Christ comes to call us home. We can honor the Lord with our beauty, teach our children to dress modestly, and speak the truth in love but we can't control the rest.

1 Peter 3:2-4
when they see the purity and reverence of your lives. 3Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. 4Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.

Psalm 45:11
11 The king is enthralled by your beauty; honor him, for he is your lord.

Friday, November 8, 2013

Guarding your heart, retraining your mind.

Dear blogosphere,

What might have been doesn't exist. 

Going back in the past to change something isn't going to happen.  

I love a Hebrew word picture of the word is a man in a canoe rowing backwards in the future but very much focused on the past. The apostle Paul is taken out of context when he says, "forgetting what is behind..."  God never tells us to amputate our history from our present reality. That's stupid.  But the whole, "what might have been..." Is a game of the enemy aimed at the mind to rob you of contentment. If you allow it to fester it will resurrect a stronghold in your mind and keep you stuck! I know this one. We are so wise to learn from our past. Look at our nation...we clearly have forgotten that to forget history is for history to repeat itself. Paul was speaking of forgetting past achievements. We can't live off of yesterday's relationship with The Lord or just forget some of the field trips we have taken and learned the hard way that God was right and He can be trusted. The only prescription for tearing down a stronghold is not with carnal methods but divine ones. Namely the Word of God, fasting, prayer, and choices to retrain your thinking. Learn and your do over will be not repeating the same stuff the next time. As a dog returns to his vomit so a fool returns to his folly. I remember our dogs eating grass, puking, and then eating their vomit.  Hate to ruin anyone's breakfast. I would stand slack jawed and yell how sick!!!! Yet that's what we do when we refuse to learn and choose differently. Some of you have been pining away over a person, place, or thing and in essence you are wandering in the wilderness spiritually speaking. Yet The Lord has called you out of darkness that He might bring you into a good and spacious place. Yet there is a mountain in front of you that won't move. You've got to go around it (deut 1 and 2). You didn't get where you are overnight and being free isn't for the faint of heart. You are going to have to go after it but as you will find a liberation in your soul and a knowing of Jesus that's not words on a page. How bad do you really want to be free?  For me it's meant intense time in the word and The Lord performing heart surgery while I was wide awake with no anesthesia!!! His word works. That's all I know. He may not change your circumstance but He will set you free. He invites each of us to come and drink for free...even though it was so costly for Christ. He instructs us to not spend ourselves on what doesn't satisfy (isa 55). He is proved right always...this I know.  You have to make some choices, drive some stakes in the ground, and set your face like flint determined to do His will. You can't phone this one in. I've been the biggest fool on the can't out school me there. 

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Obama Care, Marxism, and a quick rant

It really bothers me when we elect someone for an office based on the color of skin. I'm one that believes that we should embrace our different races instead of trying to act like we aren't different and try to be color blind. Why can't we appreciate and embrace the fact that God made us in His image and news flash: Jesus wasn't a butt white dude. He was Hebrew and dark skinned. Hello!?!? It doesn't take rocket science. Anyway, with that being said, I say this about our many that say they are believers voted for a man based on race and not on moral values. Like the sanctity of life. That's a big deal to God. We live in a culture of great moral decline and animals have more press and rights then unborn babies. Well, I get made fun of for my love of history, but if you studied you'd see Obama and Obama care is nothing more than Marxism.

Please tell me you read "Animal Farm" and it wasn't just a requirement for honors english?! 

We are headed down a path of decline of major proportions...yet because of our own dumbed down society and a turn from Creator God to an anything goes tolerant nation. We didn't arrive here overnight. Churches have mass-marketed Jesus in the West and have failed to make disciples as long as they can have big numbers and appeal to the seeker friendly crowd, using carnal methods to attract people instead of the exaltation of Christ alone! And we wonder why peoples lives are falling apart left and right. Because we are created to worship and without becoming a disciple of Christ we will worship anything. But we are closer now than when we first believed.  It's going to be a scary day when the Great and powerful Shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. Yet I long for the Rock that smashes the statue of World Empires in the book of Daniel!  The government will be upon His shoulders. Come Lord Jesus!! 

Thursday, October 31, 2013

Sharing in the sufferings of others

Man I could write a book right now with so much love and compassion to my fellow sisters in Christ who have been so deeply hurt and felt as if they will never measure what is not even real in the media or porn industry.  I grieve because of the insecurity and deep rejection and brokenness that it causes. I grieve for those that are so enslaved in sin that they can't even detect their idols anymore. I grieve for the women who think they can just tweak this or that with their outward appearance and then if they maybe change this one more thing...then so and so will love them. The problem isn't you. Fixing your outward appearance isn't going to make someone else steeped in lies love or want you. You aren't the problem.  The problem is sin and people who don't fear God, they don't know what living in His presence is like enough to want out because they are so miserable of loss of fellowship with Him. Please no ugly or rude comments either as I could write out a host of scriptures to support what I'm saying. The whole industry is designed to create addicts and we are all created to be filled. Yet with's progressive. There is never enough. You have to add more and more and more to feed the lust of the flesh until you are hung. You may start out in secrecy but you will act out eventually and those secrets will manifest. I'm talking to men and women. And you have to be radical to live in this world and not succumb to the pressure and temptation of sensuality. But I pray for this future generation and the people I stand arm to arm with now...that they will humble themselves and cry out and be free from the sin that so easily entangles them. It's going to take work, a battle plan of knowing where you went East, accountability, the Spirit of God, bathing in His word for the renewal of your mind. Prayer and fasting. We can't walk in victory in isolation.  We can't lay one idol down without picking another up. I don't even know if I'm making sense. I keep my phone on password protect because my call in life is not to decorating or painting or call is to women. To serve them, love them, pray for them, grieve with them, and most of all to in some way point them to Jesus and that He is enough. The password protect on my phone is so peoples business stays their business and no one reads what is so personal in all of the prayer requests I get to FB or on text.  I entered into one of my friends deep pain and suffering today and I have been weeping and wanted to put it out there that no matter what you've done, no matter the sin (and yes there are consequences and He is merciful), no matter how far you've run, no matter if you were pushed into a pit like Joseph by his brothers...his own flesh and blood!!! And you may stand at a crossroads where you are exhausted and torn and lost your way. I beg you like in the psalm of accents...if the enemy has plowed your back and made his furrows long...that you would weep forward into the soil and let it produce something that only God can cause to grow. Weep forward. Don't dare let the enemy have the victory over you. You are the only person you can control. Don't dare let him drive a stake in you and wave his flag of victory over you. He can't have your salvation if you are in Christ but he can empower your witness. He can allow you to ebb away with bitterness. DO NOT LET HIM!!!!! Even if life has hit you hard by Gods grace get up and deal with the blow that was dealt to you. Get in the word. Pour out your heart to God and some safe people. This can apply to anything.   Also, grieve the loss of what was, what isn't, what you hoped it would be but grieve before The Lord and tell Him. He already knows and He grieves. He also heals. He turns gaping wounds into scars even if no one else will see them. God sees. He loves you my  sister in Christ. "The King is enthralled by your beauty, honor Him for he is your lord." Psalm 45:11. Also, all this living in darkness stuff and not being accountable. The bible is speaking to believers constantly about being free and putting off the old and putting on the new. It speaks to immorality constantly. Why????!!!!! Because God doesn't waste words and believers were going back to places of captivity. It's nothing new. Yet Gods commands are not burdensome. They are for you. They are for you. People want to pin Christians as hypocrites. Duh!  We are all sinful and sick with sin and need a Savior. We will struggle with sin until we lay these bodies down and our faith is made sight. However, you and me...we can walk in victory. 

Sunday, October 27, 2013

What goes up must come down--cause and effect and consequences of sin

Ok I can't come to grips with people who can grasp Sir Isaac Newtons famous quote, "what goes up must come down"...but then can't come to grips with the cause and effects of sin. In His Great Love and Mercy we are not consumed. Let me mantra is psalm 130 before anyone misunderstands me. But when others douse themselves in kerosine and light the match to their own flame and burn everything to the ground around them. Then, almost as if they had some temporary amnesia...never-mind the fact that they have shipwrecked their faith and family for the lust of the flesh...they come back and can't understand why people are hurt and relationships are torn and trust is broken.  It amazes me every-time!!! Then, if I've heard it once...I've heard it over and over...they are forgiven by God now and free without any repentance or cooperation with The Lord to be free or any proof of godly sorrow that leads to repentance...and if you don't get on board with that then you are some bitter, unforgiving, judgmental Christian!  How about NO!  Forgiveness as far as it depends on you doesn't mean reconciliation of relationship with a destructive unrepentant person!  Watch the counsel you get and compare it to scripture. People will try to emotionally manipulate you and twist scripture even to mess with your head and the devil did it to Jesus in the wilderness. Don't ever ever make the grave mistake of thinking He didn't come as fully man even though He is God (Phil 2). He was tempted in every stinking way we are and was without sin!!!! Every way!!! Even when people try to pin their sin on you as the excuse...they are calling God a liar and saying He didn't provide a way of escape. He did. (I'm not talking about true victims of abuse or childhood abuse either as I want to be so sensitive to that) They just chose not to take it!!! Again, I'm not being like James and John who were nicknamed the Sons of Thunder. I don't want to call down judgment or fire on anyone!!! That's not my seat!  I'm just saying why can we so clearly understand gravity and not get that we have consequences for our choices.  It's what's wrong with this victim mentality society we live in. No one wants to turn their finger in but only point and blame others. Even if others have failed you miserably, broken your heart, set you up for temptation, rejected you, abandoned you and the list goes on....are you going to live in a prison of victimization your whole life pining away over it and trying to get someone or something to pay you what you feel is owed only to come out worse off? How long will you lay in defeat over something that was done to you or not done 20 years ago? By Gods grace I would beg you to throw yourself at the mercy seat where the curtain was torn in two and we have access to the Most High Priest and fall into His hands like David said.  With Him is unfailing love and with Him is full redemption.  Even if you have shipwrecked things...your life isn't over!!!! Pick up His word. Deeply repent and use all of that to pay the enemy back as you seek to snatch others from the flames and turn a sinner from his ways. We are still supposed to be our brothers keeper!!! Godly sorrow leads to repentance and moreover relationship with our creator through committing to the process of knowing Him.  You can't lay one idol down without picking one up.  He has to be exalted over all until you say get away from me and throw those other idols in your life away like the bible says, "like a menstrual cloth". We live in a world where it's so hard to hear from all the noise and will we trade our inheritance for a bowl of stew, for what is cheap? For what brings shame? For what we've been redeemed from? Or will we go after Him? He is worthy and He is proved right always. Take it from someone who knows and y'all NO I'm NOT TALKING ABOUT ME OR ANYONE in my immediate family.  

Let's deal with our stuff quickly and cry out to Him for help!  He does not treat us as our sins deserve. 

Friday, October 25, 2013

Denial and acceptance

Failure to move beyond denial makes acceptance near impossible. Whether it's denial over sin, denial over reality, denial over the truth, denial over what might have been... You can't move onto acceptance and wholeness until you own up to whatever you're in denial about. It means taking a hard long look at maybe even the lies you've told yourself for so long that you've believed them...but letting The Lord search you and taking steps to face up and accept some things about your current estate. Saying goodbye to something's. Obedience isn't always easy especially if longstanding periods of disobeying got us where we are. But small steps in the right direction and willing to obey has to happen before your heart and mind change. However, the only way I know for a renewed mind and change is Gods word. Living in it. Allowing Him to heal you of waywardness or brokenness. When you try not to think about something or someone if you are like me you are like ok great plan but if I try not to think about xyz then I'm thinking about not thinking about it and I'm thinking about it. To take your thoughts captive you have to replace them. Put them on Gods word. It's the only way I know for liberation and wholeness. Letting Him thrill us and meet us in our barren places. Until then...we will only pine away for what isn't...and maybe wander around in a wasteland never moving on to the promised one. We have to exercise the will to obey. It doesn't come natural. Speaking to myself of course. ;) 

Thursday, October 17, 2013

Baby girl door hanger! My sister is supposed to give birth today to a baby girl.

Here is the door hanger I made for my new niece Sadie Reese. Praying now in advance that my little sister has an easy delivery. 

Monday, October 14, 2013

Diy burlap door-hanger roll tide (even if it's a cuss word to me)

I just painted this guy real quick and he isn't dry but I get so many Alabama football doorhanger requests. 

Breast cancer awareness ribbons

Faith hope pray fight 
Breast cancer ribbons, wooden door hangers...still need more bling. 

DIY arts and crafts from tonight

Here is a dresser I've been working on. It is so sentimental because it is almost identical to my childhood dresser. I used to open the doors and change behind them for privacy since I shared a room with 2 of my sisters. 

Then this is a random thing...I cut this ceiling tile in the shape (almost) of Alabama and wrote a verse in the middle. 

This is a wreath I made for a dear friend. Hope she likes it....because it has a whole lot of ribbon going on. 

This is just a basic initial I do once football gets going. 

Oh and how I can't wait for Sadie Reese to get here. This is for her party. 

So I was sick of making Alabama stuff and redid my auburn w from last year. 

This is a football I made to hang at my parents house. 

I made this for my sweet neighbor but need to add ribbon. 

This was so fun. Nails and twine 

Mistle toe- diy crafts

So I know it's early but what a great keepsake. I stained some blocks. Painted some white paint on their feet, then covered with Modge lodge and made my bows for the top and nailed them in the wood and added their names and year along with the green star and red button. Now I'm already getting lots of sugars.