August 20th, 2004 is the day I became a mom. I never aspired to be a mom. Getting married or being a mom would take away from my time with the Lord, I thought, so I really didn’t care about either of the two. Yet there is nothing like getting in a singles ministry and seeing other girls in full blown crisis mode over the need to get married that will awaken your senses to your own urgency that you didn’t even know you had…to be married. At times it seemed an all consuming fire to the people around me. They needed to get married and then of course I thought I did too. I guess I thought I would get married someday but I was certainly not one of those girls who had her whole wedding planned out as a child. None of that nonsense for me, I thought! Maybe it was because I came from a broken home and a dad that needs his own reality show called “15 kids and I lost count”. Nevertheless, God had a plan for me whether “the Bobster” as I refer to him, was in my life or not. Marriage was never a pretty picture to me. As far as examples go the ones I saw made me decide that I really didn’t want to put myself through that.
Psalm 27:10 (NIV1984)
the Lord will receive me.
but they have not gained the victory over me.
3 Plowmen have plowed my back
and made their furrows long.
4 But the Lord is righteous;
he has cut me free from the cords of the wicked.
[ The Future Glory of Zion ] “Sing, O barren woman, you who never bore a child; burst into song, shout for joy, you who were never in labor; because more are the children of the desolate woman than of her who has a husband,” says the LORD.