So, life has been nuts! Rod had surgery then emergency surgery to save his life. I just got my laptop fixed where I can type. My facebook hiatus didn't last long because I was able to update everyone on Rod that way. I am going to deactivate soon. We have one more surgery to go. Anyway, I just wanted to put this up real quick because I know someone has to be like me and in need of the Lord to give them some spiritual CPR because maybe life has just beat you down for a while and you have felt indifferent and are in need of His touch. If I have let stuff creep in and haven't tended to the garden of my heart which is literally the hebrew rendering of the word for guard in proverbs 4:23. We are told to guard our hearts (the seat of our emotions...what we operate from) above all things because it affects everything we do. We have to inspect our garden, pull weeds, sow seeds of prayer His word and tears in the good soil and not allow pestilence of trial or others to come in and destroy our plants. We are meant to bear fruit and be affective...not just barely make it! Ive been through a lot of personal trial lately and I don't want to lose heart or become hard because of it. I want those things that have perplexed me and tried to rob me to turn to gold! I want to be able to turn back and strengthen the brethren. I want to cross the finish line and know I made it and did it with some victory with an enemy hard pressed against me. game over. my team wins. I told the Lord I am so sorry for anything I have tried to fill myself with that is not Him. Ugh so prone to wander and leave the God I love. Yet truly I would rather live in a portalet than be far from Him and have all the riches this world could offer. I want Him! Come to us Lord. We need a double portion of Your Spirit.
Seriously, I just got on my face (with Blair on my back) and asked God to rid me of any callousness or indifference toward Him. I know someone out in blog land is miserable and desperately needs the Lord to come to them like the rain on the parched land of your soul. I asked Him like in Psalm 119:37 to please turn my eyes from worthless things and that my face would be set like flint determined to do His will. I need Him so much! I'd almost rather die than live my life without His presence at work within my life. I can get through anything with Him but in anyway that I have tried to go at it alone or meet my own needs has always proved to be a broken cistern that can't hold the living water I need. Asking for me and whoever else that the Lord give us renewed interest where we have been indifferent or where we have declined. Hosea 6:1-3 “Come, let us return to the Lord.
He has torn us to pieces
but he will heal us;
he has injured us
but he will bind up our wounds.
2 After two days he will revive us;
on the third day he will restore us,
that we may live in his presence.
3 Let us acknowledge the Lord;
let us press on to acknowledge him.
As surely as the sun rises,
he will appear;
he will come to us like the winter rains,
like the spring rains that water the earth. ”
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Posted by jennyhope at 3:50 PM