Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Pleasing Aroma

Galatians 1:10Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ.

I have just a few minutes to spare and I wanted to get this posted before I get my punkin' from school. I got up this morning and read my one year bible, then got Morgan ready for school. Our routine in the car is praise music and then we pray. Last night she rushed down stairs (no lie) and said mommy you have got to get upstairs and hold hands with me and daddy and pray. Long winded as I am, she got tired of holding hands and Rod fell asleep. This has nothing to do with my post...

I sat in our church parking lot and cracked open my bible and Esther. I am so aware of my poverty apart from Christ. I do not know where I would be without Him. And when I have strayed I have realized that I am truly miserable apart from dwelling in the shadow of His wings (ps 91). In the dead silence (which is not often) I was listening for that still small voice. Then, after I finished bible study I began to voice some things to the Lord. Some things so personal to me and that says a lot from someone like me who likes to SHARE EVERYTHING.

I talked with the Lord about my calling in life. I assume most of you who read this care about the calling God has put on your life. We all have a calling during this brief tenure on earth and I don't want to miss it. As we seek God I believe we will fulfill our callings. I so desire to make His name famous, not mine. Anyway, I have been wrestling with the whole calling thing and it occurred to me that part of my problem is trying to walk by site and not faith. Morgan was asking me the other day where God was and what does He look like. When I was explaining to her she said, "momma I can't see Him." Then she said, "I know where God is. He is in my bible." I loved it. Another deterance of mine is people. I will look at certain situations, feel defeated, and think God have you forgotten about me here. The Lord has given me a passion to teach and it is like a fire in my bones. We are told to fan into the flames of our spiritual gifts. I so long to do that...but there seems to be no open doors. When I see that doors are shut I have to trust and rest in God's plan and not what I think man thinks of me. That is why I put the verse in Galatians at the top. You will find over and over in the new testement where it says "Paul, a servant of Christ." That was his identity. That needs to be ours until we finish this race ____ (name) a servant of Christ. I struggle so much with discouragement and it is just plain frustrating. But if I stay focused on His word and who He is and the fact that I am just a servant of Christ mans opinion seems to fade. (I have 5 minutes...gotta hurry...sorry for errors)

Paul was speaking in context about proclaiming the gospel and sticking to truth and not any other gospel. Christ and Christ alone is the only way to God. So if we are going to serve God we have got to quit worrying about what everyone else thinks. I want to be like David where he says this in 2 Samuel 6: 21 David said to Michal, "It was before the LORD, who chose me rather than your father or anyone from his house when he appointed me ruler over the LORD's people Israel—I will celebrate before the LORD. 22 I will become even more undignified than this, and I will be humiliated in my own eyes.

No one knows my shortcomings better than me and the Lord. Yet I truly want us all to press on with God regardless. He made us, he knows how we are formed of mere dust. We are weak in ourselves. I know some things are on my heart for ministry but I began to tell Him in the car all of my "I can'ts. Then, of course I was like my weakness He is made strong. His power is made perfect in our weakness.

Ok. Out of time but I wanted to close with these verses that the Lord has literally gone out of His way to bombard me with and then still I am like Lord do you have a plan for me? O Ye of Little Faith I am sure He has said.

“For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29:11-13


Greg P. said...

Jenny, you do have a heart for teaching. You just taught me to not give up when times get tough. You reminded me to keep going back to the cross and opening my Bible. I also struggle with hard times and feeling like the world is sometimes caving in on me. You're not alone, down here on earth or in your walk with Christ.

Very good post. Thank you.

Jennifer said...

I only have a few seconds as well, and I want to come back & re-read this when I have more time, but I just had to say a quick thank you for posting this. It resonates with me big time right now. I'm on Week 4 of Esther... and anyway, I may comment again, but for right now, thank you.

Becky said...

I don't know how I found your blog, but I have been reading for several months now. I always walk away from your posts wanting to know more of Jesus. You are so incredibly pure. Your heart cleary cries out for the truth, and that you pursue nothing less than the truth. You will never know the impact and platform that you have with your "teaching" here on your blog. I want to encourage you to keep doing what you are doing. God is using you. He uses you to teach me how to be a better wife, mama, and friend. I am guessing we are about the same age, and when I read some of your posts, I thing to myself, "Gosh, I have got to get it together, and I need to get a hold of the truth like this girl!". I don't know if I am actually expressing this the way it sounds in my head, I just want to encourage you, because that is what you do for me, encourage me to keep going in the Lord. Even when I feel like I don't know what I am talking about, just keep reading the Word and plugging away. And you keep it real! When you have a bad day you say it! When you are on a mountain top, you confess it! You have something that I want! More of Jesus! He sees you, and He does know the plans He has for you!
Becky Smith

Andreea said...

Jenny, this is the thrid time TODAY that I've seen that scripture in Jeremiah 29. Years ago when I was in high shcool, it was my favorite scripture. I even made book marks with it for my library books.

Fran said...

Dang..Esther is all up on us all! I love this study. I'm fired up. I'm scared. I'm excited. I don't know.

Thanks Jenny for the word. Can we do lunch soon? I miss ya and just wish we could "talk." I'm praying for all of us girls tonight. Lord, give us the faith that we need to get out there and fulfill the calling that you have placed on our lives. We truly don't want to miss a thing.