"The" Priority

Matthew 6:33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

I am pathetic. This past weekend I had what most people call "the ugly cry". I started to lose it because my house has been a total wreck. I have never been a person that can just tolerate all the mess. I could sit here and make excuses but the truth is sometimes I am eating the bread of idleness and other times I am just too slap busy to get things done like I want to. I immediately begin to look around and freak out because there is so much to do and I don't know where to start. That makes me want to go hide under the covers. Top that with putting a million expectations on myself and listening to the subtle whispers of the enemy telling me that I am a failure and you have one overwhelmed chick!
I cried for what may have been an hour on Saturday. Rod doesn't see me cry that often so when he heard me going to pieces we actually were able to communicate some things that we really just needed to talk about.
Not that I rejoice in the iniquity of others AT ALL but I feel better when I turn that show on called "Clean House" (I think that is the name). I can then tell myself that none of that does anything for my situation but hey it could be worse. So wrong of me.
To the praise and glory of Jesus I am not where I was on Saturday and I have actually accomplished a lot. Sometimes though we (especially as women) just need to let out everything we've been holding in and be honest before God. I believe when we get in His presence and even just cry and not have the words that the Holy Spirit intercedes for us with groaning's and longings that can not be expressed.
My bible study group is wonderful by the way. I can not tell you how honored I am to be able to serve these women along with my Sunday morning class. I am so humbled that God would allow this child with all of her frailties still be used by Him. He is so Other.
So, I had the above verse on my heart. Our relationship to Christ has to be our life. Our highest ambition...to know Him. As we seek Him, His Kingdom and His righteousness He gives us everything we need for life and godliness so that we are able to walk this thing out on planet earth.
When I am not seeking Him first things are just out of balance in my life. A lot of mornings I wake up with vertigo and the room just seems to spin. God is on His throne and will always be on the throne of His mercy seat. Even when we feel that everything around us is spinning out of control He is not moved. He doesn't need to be just a number on a list of priorities. He is the priority and life and the abundance of the soul that comes from the Holy Spirit only flows from a seeking soul who longs to seek Him above all else.
I just pray that each of us would long for Him more than anything. That He would just give us a bitter taste in our mouth regarding the things that we are putting before Him.
There is nothing in all of life like a vibrant relationship with Christ. Do what you have to do to be in that place with Him. Forsaking all other lesser loves for the pursuit of the most worthy Lover of our Souls.
Now I have no idea if I am making any sense because I am about to pass out I am so tired! I just finished priming a few walls. Have I ever mentioned my hatred for wallpaper?!?!? If not there you go!

I made this for one of my little friends who is afraid to sleep in her room. This verse helped me so much when I was having a major stronghold of fear.

I made a second one so I wouldn't waste paint.

psalm 4:8

whoa!

Can I just tell you that what I have been learning would take me so long to type that I have not even been able to blog. Y'all seriously. The LORD has been crushing some wrong views of Jesus that I have held and teaching me about His Jewishness. I am so floored at times that I feel like He may just kill me with His glory. Seriously, He is such a delight and wonder. I love Him so for teaching me. I have a holy fear over just teaching my own opinions without diving into the context and historical background. He is just too much!!! If we seek Him we will find Him when we seek Him with all of our hearts.

Hold me accountable to type out the sweet goodness I have been learning! I may try tonight.

I started my new bible study this week (the updated Breaking Free). I am teaching on Sunday mornings as well. Things are a little crazy on my end. I had a lot of little things to do after my car got broken into so it has meant for a hectic week. My heart aches for the Haitian people and I pray that God pours out His mercy on their land.

So what have you been up to?

My Aunt

My aunt, Judy Wells, went to be with Jesus tonight. She was a wonderful woman. She endured much suffering without complaining. She had bladder cancer and she fought hard. My heart just broke for her and her family as I saw a portion of what they have endured. Please keep Robert (my uncle) and Caitlin (my cousin) in your prayers. Thank you for those of you who have prayed for her.


Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
A Time for Everything
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

So far in twenty ten

Well, Christmas day I was in the ER. I am OK
Then, I hit the deer with my car.
I fell through the attic boards putting up Christmas decor.
My car got broken into and they stole my beloved camera, my meds, purse, cute monogrammed bag and my burberry perfume. Oh well!! I got a new window today for my passenger side. I am truly blessed!
I have had tremendous peace through all of it! He surely gives us peace and grace when we need it and not before.

Also, I would ask that you say a prayer on my behalf. I praise God for anyone that would offer up a prayer for little ol' me.
There is enormous need among some women that I know right now and have the blessing of ministering to. Then, I am about to start teaching 2 bible studies a week along with my class on Sunday mornings. Please pray that God would just be everything to me and these precious women. I would ask you to pray for every yoke of the oppressor to be broken and destroyed and that each of us would be madly in love with Jesus. Also, the Breaking Free bible studies. I really want each person to be committed to the journey and see it through! Thank you, thank you!!

Bible Study Sign-Up/Hunter Street Baptist Church--Hoover, AL

Winter Women's Bible Study sign ups. CLICK HERE to sign up for a bible study.

Poor Sir Bambi

Proverbs 16:9 In his heart a man plans his course,
but the LORD determines his steps.

Not to interrupt my blog-o-versary post but I thought I was spending New Years Eve alone. Around 11ish I was on the couch bawling my eyes out, over a depressing movie, when my baby girl called and she was homesick. She said she needed to check on her bear name Cherry.
So, I jump in the car and head to meet her with her Pop. On my way I am going about 75 mph, talking to Morgans MiMi, and I see a deer in front of me on the interstate. I thought real quick about what I needed to do. If I swerved I would either end up in the ditch or hitting the car next to me, so I unfortunately had to hit Sir. Bambi head on. It made the worst sound EVER. I can still hear it. Anyway, I get out and check the damage...y'all nothing. No damage. Praise the Lord!! I guess I am seeing more deer then Rod while he has been in Kansas. The police officer that was by me said he couldn't believe there was no damage.
Morgan gets in the car and asks me all about it. She and I always pray for the Lord to let us see deer and other animals. So, she says, "Mom, I sure am glad that God let you see a deer." Not quite the way I wanted to see one God love that poor deer. Hopefully, this is not the start of any New Year drama!!!