God is not a man, that He should lie

Numbers 23:19
19 God is not a man, that he should lie,
nor a son of man, that he should change his mind.
Does he speak and then not act?
Does he promise and not fulfill?

A couple of years ago (and even several years back) I was spending time in prayer, asking God to confirm some things that had been on my heart. Things that were a fire in my bones (Jeremiah 20:9), so to speak, and things that I felt were in line with His will. He confirmed in a profound, dramatic way through His word and His people that the passion He put on my heart was a calling that He had on my life. Time has passed and I have done what some of our earliest biblical ancestors have done...I have doubted and attempted to run ahead of Gods timing. I have questioned like I am sure they did: Was that really you God? Did you really confirm that? Have I sinned too much for you to still use me? And on and on. Then, like Abraham and Sarah receiving the promise for offspring I have tried to help God move things forward in my own time( just like they did when he slept with her maidservant Hagar)...which always produces and Ishmael (Ishmael=mans attempt to help God out). We see the conflict in the Middle East to this day because of mans attempt to help God out with His promises. Ishmael was a product of the flesh and Isaac was a work of the Spirit. God was faithful to His covenant regardless of their sin.

I thought that the Lord may be opening a door for me and I checked into it and asked Him to let nothing proceed if it was not where He was guiding me. He did not EVEN open that door. It was slammed shut. Why, I don't know but I desperately need His hand to be on anything I do or it will be only a product of my flesh and my work will not stand the test (1 Corinthians 3:11-13). I have shoved open so many doors on my own instead of waiting on the Lord. I have seriously been like the child squirming out of her mothers arms with impatience. I look back over the time that I have been born again and I see how much He has been growing me. How much zeal I had without knowledge and what an idiot I have been in my life. Yet the Lord has not given up on me, He has not dropped or abandoned me. Praise You Lord!
So, I am finally at a place of rest and trust in my inner man. I am okay with the wait because I know that His ways are perfect. I have learned through my own striving to cease and wait on Him. I also know that He is still growing me and maturing me and I am not where I need to be. He wants me to just keep seeking Him and following His lead to the Promised Land.
So, I encourage anyone reading this to keep looking to the Author and Perfecter of our faith...Jesus. Keep believing Him when all the odds seem against you and you feel forgotten. Keep listening for His voice and not the voice of man...even if it is your closest friend or relative speaking doubt and discouragement into your life.

Romans 3:4Not at all! Let God be true, and every man a liar. As it is written:
"So that you may be proved right when you speak
and prevail when you judge."

He is faithful. Without faith it is impossible to please Him. So whatever you are waiting for, keep taking that mustard seed of faith to Him in prayer and wait...even if it means you die believing Him...BELIEVE HIM!

Psalm 89:8
8 O LORD God Almighty, who is like you?
You are mighty, O LORD, and your faithfulness surrounds you.

Love~


ps I just went to my friend Amys blog (go tell her hey...her blog is still kind of new and I know how friendly you siestas are) and read this CLICK HERE and it was so encouraging how the Lord just led me to read what she had on there.