Wednesday, April 23, 2008

God is not a man, that He should lie

Numbers 23:19
19 God is not a man, that he should lie,
nor a son of man, that he should change his mind.
Does he speak and then not act?
Does he promise and not fulfill?

A couple of years ago (and even several years back) I was spending time in prayer, asking God to confirm some things that had been on my heart. Things that were a fire in my bones (Jeremiah 20:9), so to speak, and things that I felt were in line with His will. He confirmed in a profound, dramatic way through His word and His people that the passion He put on my heart was a calling that He had on my life. Time has passed and I have done what some of our earliest biblical ancestors have done...I have doubted and attempted to run ahead of Gods timing. I have questioned like I am sure they did: Was that really you God? Did you really confirm that? Have I sinned too much for you to still use me? And on and on. Then, like Abraham and Sarah receiving the promise for offspring I have tried to help God move things forward in my own time( just like they did when he slept with her maidservant Hagar)...which always produces and Ishmael (Ishmael=mans attempt to help God out). We see the conflict in the Middle East to this day because of mans attempt to help God out with His promises. Ishmael was a product of the flesh and Isaac was a work of the Spirit. God was faithful to His covenant regardless of their sin.

I thought that the Lord may be opening a door for me and I checked into it and asked Him to let nothing proceed if it was not where He was guiding me. He did not EVEN open that door. It was slammed shut. Why, I don't know but I desperately need His hand to be on anything I do or it will be only a product of my flesh and my work will not stand the test (1 Corinthians 3:11-13). I have shoved open so many doors on my own instead of waiting on the Lord. I have seriously been like the child squirming out of her mothers arms with impatience. I look back over the time that I have been born again and I see how much He has been growing me. How much zeal I had without knowledge and what an idiot I have been in my life. Yet the Lord has not given up on me, He has not dropped or abandoned me. Praise You Lord!
So, I am finally at a place of rest and trust in my inner man. I am okay with the wait because I know that His ways are perfect. I have learned through my own striving to cease and wait on Him. I also know that He is still growing me and maturing me and I am not where I need to be. He wants me to just keep seeking Him and following His lead to the Promised Land.
So, I encourage anyone reading this to keep looking to the Author and Perfecter of our faith...Jesus. Keep believing Him when all the odds seem against you and you feel forgotten. Keep listening for His voice and not the voice of man...even if it is your closest friend or relative speaking doubt and discouragement into your life.

Romans 3:4
Not at all! Let God be true, and every man a liar. As it is written:
"So that you may be proved right when you speak
and prevail when you judge."

He is faithful. Without faith it is impossible to please Him. So whatever you are waiting for, keep taking that mustard seed of faith to Him in prayer and wait...even if it means you die believing Him...BELIEVE HIM!

Psalm 89:8
8 O LORD God Almighty, who is like you?
You are mighty, O LORD, and your faithfulness surrounds you.


ps I just went to my friend Amys blog (go tell her hey...her blog is still kind of new and I know how friendly you siestas are) and read this CLICK HERE and it was so encouraging how the Lord just led me to read what she had on there.


Bev Brandon said...

Hey Jen, hope you're feeling well!!
Your post meant a lot to me for I have shed a super slew of tears today. So I hopped over to Amy's and there it was again...a gentle breeze blowing of the Spirit of God through you guys to me...
thinking about you lots...
Love, Bev

Little Steps Of Faith said...

Jenny, First of all love the title, it is one of my favorite verses, because it reminds me of how NOT human our God is, and how He does not fit into the box we often place Him it!
Thank you for writing your heart out though; I miss getting back into the groove of things in blogland; and I told God the other night in journaling that I want to get to the point where I can hear him audibly in my heart easily; I know its possible, because in the silence is where He is found just like with Elijah.
Anyway girl, you've been a blessing to my life more than you know, and its so interesting how sometimes things people don't say, really do make a difference.
Silence makes people be still, and remember what is really important in life, helps to rememebr God.

Changed forever said...

Wonderful blog! Am glad I reached here!

Changed forever said...

Wonderful blog! Am so happy that i reached here!

Shonda said...

Great post! great encouragement. I agree it is better to wait on the Lord.

Blessings in Christ--

He Knows My Name said...

good word jenny! when i have looked to man's approval, when i have been satisfied with worldy praise, there is no peace or blessing. my attempts to help God out have lasted for years, what was i thinking...i was thinking i knew better than Him...i was filled with unbelief...i needed instant gratification. what excites me to no end is that you really are getting Him at such a young age as opposed to me the stubborn, rebellious, slow learner. it is just thrilling to see you have such a discerning heart. God has plans for you as he does for all. I know the desire of your heart is that He use you...bottom line, use you...and He will and He is. love ya. ~janel

Scherr Family said...

Your blog really spoke to me. It is exactly what I need to hear right now. Thanks

debra said...

thank you for posting this.

StaceyStace said...

I can relate so well! What a tough lesson to learn. I have writhed and twisted and kicked as a rebellious child. I have resisted good, at times, and other times I have been overzealous without wisdom. It dawned on me a while back while restling with God's timing - Why am I trying to convince God that I need a place to serve Him? If I am impatient with Him, who is it I am trying to serve? He will have His way; it will be far better than mine. That makes it easier to be patient for me!
Thanks for this post.

Anonymous said...

I ran across your blog a couple of weeks ago; I'm sure glad I did. I just wanted to tell you that you are an inspiration to me. I was sorry to hear about your "spell" rapid heart beats - I have that also and am on medication. Hope you feel better.

BethAnne said...

I have been seeking the Lord about something - something big, that I could never do on my own - that may not even be His will anyway......I like the ananlogy of a child wiggling out of His arms - I have been there, but right now I am like a scared child hiding behind Him afraid to step out in faith.

Faith said...

Jenny ... wow, I feel like I could have written this post! I can relate to so much of it--like getting a clear, confirmed calling and then doubting it, running ahead, wondering if I'd sinned too much and the promise no longer applied, etc. So it was so good to read your response to those feelings. AMEN! to your words. And now I'll go check out Amy's blog. :)

Mimi said...

Jenny, I just found your bog through my daughter's favorites. I have enjoyed getting to know you through your writing. Waiting on the LORD is sometimes translated "Trust in the LORD". My husband and I have been going through a trial recently and the first day of it, a verse jumped out at me in my QT that morning. Psa 27:14 "Wait on the LORD; be of good courage, and He will strengthen your heart. Wait, I say, on the LORD!" That was the morning we found out that he had had a heart attack the night before, which began this trial. The LORD is so faithful!!

Bev Brandon said...

So what's going on with your health? Are you okay???

Bev Brandon said...

So what's going on with your health? Are you okay???

Emily said...

hey:) your words spoke right to my heart, you have no idea... thankyou sweet siesta:)

Stephanie (Ocean Mommy) said...

Hi! I sure hope you are all well and enjoying spring!

This post Jenny was such a healing balm to my heart this morning. Thank you for reminding me not to shove open the door, but wait for Jesus to open the one I'm to walk through. He's such a gentleman like that.:)

Love you girl!

Maryanna said...

I needed to read this today. Girl, the Lord is going to teach you even while you're waiting. Love you!

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