Perfect You, Imperfect Me

Psalm 84:2
² My soul yearns, even faints,
for the courts of the LORD;
my heart and my flesh cry out
for the living God.


Jesus, Jesus, Jesus You truly are the One and Only.
Out of the depths I cry to You.
Oh Lord hear my voice.
I yearn for You.
I thirst for You in a dry and weary land where there is no water.
I call to You Lord, as my heart grows faint.
Lead me to the Rock that is Higher than i.
You Oh High and Lofty One.
You O LORD clothed in majesty and strength, wrapped in light.
You knitted me together in my mothers womb, fearfully and wonderfully made...then why do I think so little of myself? You prized Your children above all...but what have I given You when I scorn Your creation with my very own words. Lord, that You would change my heart.
O LORD I have chased so many lesser things that have only made me implode with myself. I have been so blinded by this world. I have tried to stuff my soul with things that I thought would fulfill and they were only broken cisterns that held no water. I have held idols in my right hand. I have thought so little of You and fed on ashes and delusions.
I am so sick of myself, my pride, me. Lord, that I would die to myself and follow You. O that I would love You and seek You as the pearl of great price. That I would love You with all of my heart.
I have been the woman at the well.
I have been like Lazarus wrapped in grave clothes.
I was on a path to destruction and You reached down from on high and took hold of me.
I have been the one who has cried to You over and over: Lord, help my unbelief!!
I have been Mary. I have been Martha.
I have been like David who you said was a man after your own heart yet fell into grievous sin.
I have been Gomer turning back on You...as a dog returns to her vomit.
I have been the one to reach out and touch the hem of Your garment in the midst of my infirmity and anguish.
I have been the brute beast before You.
I have been like Gideon, afraid that You had chosen the wrong person.
I have acted to quickly, not waiting for Your call like Moses.
I have been Peter, denying You with my actions.
Jacob the deceiver. Jonah running from You. King Nebuchadnezzar in my pride.
I have been to great heights and depths with You.
I have been in the pit of sin, and a prisoner set free.
Lord, You know my every thought before I think it and yet You still contend with me.
Why? I will never know. But because Your love is better than life my lips will glorify You!
Thank You that Your mercies are new every morning.
Thank You that You are my husband, father, friend, counselor, peace, comforter, and refuge.
Your ways are too high for me.
You allowed Elizabeth to get pregnant when she was past menopause. You brought the Messiah through the virgin Mary. With You nothing is impossible. Please God do not let me settle for lesser things or unworthy thoughts of You. You are for my good, not my destruction. May my soul cling to You. You are Worthy Lord and I am not. By Your stripes I am healed from my sins.
If You O LORD kept a record of sins who could stand? But with You there is forgiveness therefore You are feared. I wait for You Lord. My soul waits. More than the watchmen wait for the morning. In Your Word I put my hope. You are the Only One who is True. You have no dark side. I am desperate. Come fill me with Living Water. Hem me in Lord. Take my heart and seal it for thy courts above.
Thank You for not growing weary of me. Thank You for Your constant love.
I do not deserve You...but I never want life without You. You are the air I breathe. Don't let me leave Your side.