It is hard to believe that tonight I was entering into one of the hardest gut wrenching trials of my life. Losing my firstborn. If I sit and think long enough I will go to pieces but I am really ok. I just have the personality that wants to remember my sweet ones little life. She would have been five! I would have had a little girl in kindergarten.
I have been blessed beyond measure and God has been so faithful to me. I learned so much about Him through that time! Cling to Him...He is Your Life and the Length of Your days. He will meet you in the desert and be Your Husband and the God who sees you, "El Roi".
I looked through those cards lastnight. I have not looked at them in five years. I cried my eyes out over the faithfulness of God through my brothers and sisters in Christ. They encouraged me back to health as part of the process that God would use to heal my tattered heart.
And because (ask anyone in my family) I will find any reason to get a cake...me and Morgan are going to get a cake and celebrate the life that was here for a short time but brought Him glory.
4 years old
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Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Posted by jennyhope at 7:47 PM