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Sunday, March 23, 2008

Against My Better Judgment

Rod, Morgan, and I went out to my parents house tonight. My dad wanted to take Morgan to the fair that was in town. I am not sure who liked going more, Rod or Morgan. Morgan has my personality in so many ways and in other ways she is just like Rod. Besides my trips to the Thrift Store, the fair is like going back in time. The rides seem very unsafe and etc. I DO NOT DO amusement park rides or fair rides. My heart literally can not take it. Morgan seriously was the kid in the candy store tonight. She was so overwhelmed and she truly felt like she should be allowed to ride anything. The first ride she got on was a kiddie ride, and her first mini roller coaster ever. My niece was riding with her and I explained how I really needed her to watch Morgan on the ride. Rod thought it would be fine for her to ride the kid rides and plenty of other kids Morgans age were doing just that. She starts out fine and then she gets brave. The child has no fear. She stood up three different times and even held her hands in the air as she went around. She seriously almost fell out of the roller coaster and I stood there helpless and panicked. Every person watching their kid gasped as they saw Morgan almost fall off. Even Rod got nervous and what did I do? I screamed! We all began to scream for my niece to hold on to her. It was more than I could take. I was so shaken up and I even cried at the thought of what could have happened to her while she was having the time of her little life. If it were up to me we would have left the place after that but Rod let her ride more rides. Of course after that episode I talked to each person operating the rides and asked them to stop the ride immediately if they saw the cutest little girl with pig-tails, who is only two years old, start to come out of her seat.

Morgan needs some fear in her to keep her from doing what she did tonight. She needs boundaries and so do you and I. I can't imagine how it must break the Lord's heart when He sees us wandering down paths that could cause us great pain and hurt us badly. How all of heaven must gasp when we leave our Fathers side to chase after this world. I pray that He would have our whole hearts and that we would see the boundaries He puts up for us as good and wise and that our fear and reverence for Him would keep us from sin. I praise God tonight that my sweet girl is okay.

Exodus 20:20
20 Moses said to the people, "Do not be afraid. God has come to test you, so that the fear of God will be with you to keep you from sinning." (emphasis mine)

11 comments:

twinkle said...

I know the feeling of helplessness when you were watching her. We want to protect them from every danger out there, don't we. I'm not a carnival rider at all. My dh and I rode the ferris wheel at a local carnival last year and I swore never again! He's afraid of heights and was so brave! But neither one of us will do that again! I really want to be able to live more adventurously but sometimes it's better to just stay on the ground!!
I really just came to tell you Happy Easter and to say how much your posts speak to my heart. Thank you for being a woman of great insight and tremendous wisdom as a disciple of Jesus Christ. Here's a holy kiss from a fellow pilgrim.

StaceyStace said...

Yes, I have spent most of my life just as little Morgan did on the roller coaster! In a lot of ways I am a scaredy-cat, but I have so foolishly dismissed my Father's boundaries you would wonder if I have any sense at all.

I'm glad she is okay!

StaceyStace said...

Yes, I have spent most of my life just as little Morgan did on the roller coaster! In a lot of ways I am a scaredy-cat, but I have so foolishly dismissed my Father's boundaries you would wonder if I have any sense at all.

I'm glad she is okay!

StaceyStace said...

Yes, I have spent most of my life just as little Morgan did on the roller coaster! In a lot of ways I am a scaredy-cat, but I have so foolishly dismissed my Father's boundaries you would wonder if I have any sense at all.

I'm glad she is okay!

Abby said...

hey girl!!! i have missed you!!! :)

yes i would love to talk to you about the NOGS study...sorry my computer is broken--the mouse doesn't work--so i can check email, and figure out blogging by doing the "tab" button...but i can't actually "send" emails cause that requires me "clicking" which i can't do..lol...uggg technology...

so as soon as i can get to a computer with a working mouse i would love to chat! if you have questions or anything that you already know of, feel free to send them and i will get back to you asap!

hope you've had an awesome easter!

Leigh said...

That is very scary. I am glad she os ok and that the Lord was sitting with her. Like you, every single night I pray that God walk with my children and keep them on the "right pathway in life". As a parent, we can only pray that they hold on to the values, morals andlessons we try and teach. God be with them all-and us!

DidiLyn said...

It is amazing that my kids have lived to adulthood, with their total lack of common sense..er, I mean FEAR.
Just kidding, they have lots of common sense and now that they are grown, a balanced sense of fear.
It's all good. :-)

BethAnne said...

This is so true, Jenny! We are all like little Morgan at times. When you become a parent it gives you a new appreciation for how God feels toward us. I often think of how much I love my boys (I love those two fiercely) and how much more God loves us. It is unfathomable and there is no way we can comprehend it all.

pinkmommy said...

The Princess is the same way...no fear. It is really good for an already worried mom! Thankfully, we have had no scares like that.

Shonda said...

Oh I understand. I have two boys who at times think their invincible. I like how you tied that in with our lives. We do near the fear of God in our lives to keep us right.

Blessings in Christ-

He Knows My Name said...

hey jenny! most every time i log on to your site the song that is playing (always different) is one that i need to hear. amazing. voice of truth was just playing.

my heart is beating hard. oh these little fearless ones just give us a run for our money. i had one (my son) i had to be three steps ahead of him and think of every conceivable angle and rule to outline his boundaries. these little smarties just catch you off guard so much. she was protected and a new lesson learned. i so love your correlation in this lesson. well put. hugs ~janel