A lesson gone Awry

I am about to run back to the lake. I had to come in to go to church. Y'all can I tell you how sweet the Lord is?! That is really not a question because I am going to tell you LOL!! Anyway, I had to take care of a bible study sign up table and teach this morning. I knew there would not be a lot of people there since it is Labor Day weekend and we are a new class. I was praying in the car and I said to the Lord that if the lesson was for anyone it was for me. Well, I stayed up most of the night preparing my heart. I always take it so seriously like I am preaching to the masses or something. Let me back track to say that I taught Sunday school in the singles for almost seven years and the first year I taught it WAS AWFUL!! Hear me AWFUL! Our singles minister asked me to teach and I prayed about it and said yes. I had no clue about gifts or anything. Anyway, this girl tried to take me in and wanted me to get up a basically read off an outline. IT WAS HORRIBLE! God in His grace allowed people to still come back. The lady who "took me in" she and I were not a good match AT ALL. I could not continue to do things her way when that is not how I was being led. Anyway, this morning two people were there and I think I taught one of the worst most scattered lessons that I have ever taught. It was like Jenny in the flesh teaching. I got in the car and almost cried my eyes out. I said to the Lord..."LORD, what in the world was that? That was TERRIBLE!!!" I called Rod and told him how I was going to spend the rest of the day beating myself up over what a horrible job I did!! Well, I got in the car and popped in sermon number 2 from a series I am listening to. Guess what?! Beth Moore was talking about how she has blown it in teaching Sunday school. How she has had days where she got in the car and said Lord what was that! The same thing I just did. She talked about how we learn as we use our gifts and many people just quit serving because they are afraid of failure. She said that we need to be patient with others while they are learning and using their God given gifts and that we have to be willing to look weak in front of others. WHHHHOOOOOAAAAAHHHH! I know the Lord used today to humble me. I am just so thankful for the sweetness of that sermon that was at the appropriate time. I get so afraid that I will fail Him...but HE will not fail me. No more sulking. Gotta head back to my family.