Saturday, September 29, 2007

Psalm 27

Of David.
1 The LORD is my light and my salvation—
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?

2 When evil men advance against me
to devour my flesh, [a]
when my enemies and my foes attack me,
they will stumble and fall.

3 Though an army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then will I be confident.

Quick story. Last night was the first night I have had to myself (meaning without Morgan) since December of 06. I wish that I did not have to work the whole weekend. Anyway, back in my single days I got really set in my ways with having time to it was nice to have a few hours to myself even if it was only a night. Point of the story. The Lord has delivered me from a HUGE (I mean HUGE) stronghold of fear. My dad is in law enforcement and I have heard every worse case scenario under the sun. I had a family member get raped in their home and I learned of this when I was six (please do not tell a 6 year old that). So, I have been scared to death ever since I can remember. When I had Morgan I decided that I really needed to be free from this. I did not want her to see her mother wigging out all of the time and pass this on to her. Plus I was just sick of living in fear. Well, I really got to the point where I decided that whatever was going to happen in my life was written in His book before one day came to pass and I was just going to have to rest in that instead of living in panic mode (it is good to be cautious but I don't think Christ wants us living in constant paranoia and fear wondering what villan is hiding behind the shower curtain when we go to the bathroom). So, last night as I was closing up a couple of policemen came by the store (at the mall). I talked with them a while and they told me all of the latest horror stories. Seriously. They told me of robberies and car jackings and etc and etc. They gave me some tips (which my mom mails me the same tips in the about scare you to death if you weren't scared already...she means well but I just have to throw them away and not look at them) on not carrying a purse (yeah right) and parking closer to the building (as if) and they walked me to my car. That was sweet...but I said guys, now I am about to go and stay home by myself for the first time (without Morgan...not Rod) in almost a year...thanks for all of the stories! Then they warned me to NEVER help ANYONE. Don't you just love that. The point is to that the enemy wanted me to go home and stay up all night in fear and you know what it did not happen...GLORY! Just so happened the one night I am to stay alone (which I don't no why I wouldn't be scared all the times its just me and Morgan...since she's 2...but I just have to be grown up for her) I get all of this wonderful news. I decided to take my thoughts captive and trust in Christ last night and I slept like a baby! AAAHHH! Gotta get ready for work and then I am heading to Moody to get my sweet girl...I miss that little thang! I had to put on some cartoons for a second last night so it would seem like she was around. What a sweet blessing!


Fran said...

Oh how He sets us free! I just loved this story of praise!! And I loved the fact you turned on cartoons even when that sweet girl isn't home!! I do that too.....some good ole Disney channel will be blaring in the background and it feels so right.

Love you!

darla said...

Law enforcement in my family too...and fear has been one of my battles...probably the biggest one..taking the thoughts captive and making them stand in front of my Ultimate Warrior is how i deal with them. HE is so good to send those things packin'.

love ya

Ang baylis said...

I'm so glad you slept like a baby last night! For me... being naive has worked really well!

I like the verse you added!!!

Enjoy Morgan!!!

Also... enjoy the fact that people think you are young! You really will appreciate it later in life!
Guess how old I am? No... you don't have to! I feel the same as I did when I was 18! You are as old as you feel!

Have a good night!
Angie xoxo

Ang baylis said...

p.s. I LOVE your new look! :)

He Knows My Name said...

sweet victory \o/ \o/!!!!

Abby said...

i LOVE psalm 27 :)

Abby said...

ps...staying by myself is a HUGE fear of in, when my roommates are not here, i will stay up as long as it takes until they get home to even get out of my room to brush my teeth. this is too much...really. i need to get over that.

connorcolesmom said...

I am so glad you took those thoughts captive and slept well!
Glory to God!
Love ya,