Wednesday, November 26, 2008

He will wipe away the tears...

Isa 25:8 he will swallow up death forever. The Sovereign LORD will wipe away the tears from all faces; he will remove the disgrace of his people from all the earth. The LORD has spoken.

Rev. 21:4He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."

Psalm 56:8You have kept count of my tossings; put my tears in your bottle. Are they not in your book?

Tonight, I got in my car and drove and just prayed and cried out to God. My feelings were so hurt and I just needed to be by myself (please make no assumptions). I felt so accused by the enemy. I did not want to pick up the phone and blast my hurt to anyone so I just cried out to God. I reminded myself that my life is in His hands and He sees every hurt, every accusation, every secret place and that this is not my home. I spoke so many things to Him but one was just, "LORD, You are all I truly have in life. I love You." Then, I prayed for the person who had hurt me. No one understood but God and that is who's arms I needed to take refuge in. My hormones also escalated things in my opinion...but still. As I prayed for blessings and mercy over this person, I told God that He knew my heart and that I really didn't mean those prayers but I wanted His will to be the desire of my heart. It is funny how if you just pray His word He will change Your heart. It truly is a miracle. I have practiced this so many times and had a complete about face toward people who have hurt me. Through God's word I am able to forgive and have my heart transformed. Also, the beauty of it is that when I go to God and entrust the situation to Him...He can work on the thing as I lay it at His feet. I asked one of my dearest friends to pray for me afterwards. I am so thankful He brought me His peace.

ANYWAY, when I got home Morgan was so excited. I had gone to Wal-mart and she was so thankful for the can of corn that had Go Diego Go on it. Bless her...I had to use it in a recipe. Later, when I was sharing my heart with Rod I started to cry. I hate to cry in front of Morgan. She stood up in the chair next to me grabbed my face and wiped (very intentionally, with the palm of her hands) the tears from my eyes. It was so the Lord using that sweet thing to say I hear you Jenny. I love you child.

A few weeks ago I told Morgan that God stores our tears in a bottle because she was crying. To which she replied, "Mommy we are going to have some big bottles." I can't get over some of the stuff she says!

Praise You Lord!


Profbaugh said...

Praise the Lord for using your baby girl to wipe away your tears!! He is just so stinkin' good, isn't He? Yes, He truly is the Master Comforter!! It's great to know your Abba cares so deeply for you. Thanks for sharing this Jenny and know my heart is very tender for you right now. Lifting you up to the Lord of Lords.

Much love,

darla said...

Love you! and these are my favorite verses. We are certainly not home yet. Imagine an eternity of not feeling your heart that thought!

When my oldest daughter went through some hard times, I used to tell her those tears are golden, don't give them to just anybody..and God is catching each and everyone of them...I remember her looking at me and saying... HE sure is going to be busy with all the tears I cry! we did laugh in the middle of GOD.
The part about praying for GOD to do a work in our heart when we are hurt, is so true! hard to explain to someone else, but there is a miraculous change, that helps us to overcome the pain and allow us to love that person..Praying for you and your family, and still telling God that I was supposed to be in TX with you and Steph..but HE has other plans...and someday Princess I am going to hug that precious neck of yours!

Lisa @ The Preacher's Wife said...


Been catching up on your last few posts and I'm crying and laughing all at the same time. I just love you so much and your heart for Christ.

BTW - your header photo is beautiful! Is that you?? Give me the story behind that!

ocean mommy said...

I'm sitting here with tears. Yesterday was such a hard day for me. I was just so tired of this same person hurting's gone on for years and it's always magnified at the holidays. I was crying out to God and He gave me some of the same passages.

Praying for you today and thanking Him for speaking to you through Morgan...that is so precious!

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving!!

debra said...

bless her and bless you, sweet one.

April in real life said...

Sweetness! Girl you know the LORD loves you & I am sure he must have lots of big jugs for us all =)
Sending you a big hug... Wish I could be there in person and pray with you...but you know I am always here.
I love how the Lord can use our children to teach us and touch our hearts in such special ways...they are precious. Mucho love to you

Fran said...

I love ya Jenny. You had some amazing humility through all that. When its so tempting to say and do the things that feel so good and so didn't.

I hope today was a wonderful day.
I pray tomorrow is even better.
And, I love that Morgan.

Hugs and blessings~

twinkle said...

I've found that when I come home from something major like a Beth Moore Bible study...the enemy doubles up his relentless attempts to destroy the mountaintop experience I came home with. I pray that God will surround you with His Presence and give you peace.
Don't let the enemy take away any of your grace.
Speak truth in love.
It's ok to set a boundary if you need one. But pray hard about it and do it with love asking God to speak through you.
I hate it that you feel this way right now. It's Thanksgiving! Go beat the enemy up with Your purse and give him straight to God.
And here's my shoulder for you to cry on. It's right here anytime you need it.
Love you tons, siesta...

Jackie said...

Oh girl- I did the same thing yesterday- was just so hurt...and it was just between me and God, sometimes we aren't meant to pick up that phone, no matter how much we might want to.
Thanks for sharing those verses....I'm glad He knows my tears and wipes each of them.
Praying for ya!

Sharon said...

Jenny, your love for Christ is contagious! Praise the Lord! I'm lifting you up in prayer. Have a Blessed and Happy Thanksgiving!

Mary said...

Girl -- I'm with you on the driving and crying thing... wait isn't that a group or a song or something. I love your heart --and what a wonderful testimony for everyone of us who's hurting and wants to pick up the phone and tell someone. Take it to the Lord first....just think how wonderful life would be if more people took this road.

Love your story about Morgan -- what a precious baby.

creative gal said...

Thank you for sharing! Some of my favorite verses!! I am praying for you. God loves you so much and he is using you to do his works!!

Sista Staci said...

Hey Jenny,
You did the right thing - Go to the throne not the phone! If I've learned anything through my trials it's talk to GOD first then a trusted friend. Stay strong and know that your prayers are working - the circumstances may not change, but your heart will. That's what makes our Sweet LORD so precious too me - HE can right a wrong!!
Blessings my Sista!

Deana said...

Hi there! I am new to the blogger world and found your blog. This particular blog is so true. How sweet God is to use our children. How sweet He is to care enough. How very sweet He is. I cant wait to read more. Visit my blog sometime. I would welcome your comments. Thank you for speaking truth; unashamed and exposed. May God richly bless you!