I love to read and a friend of mine Angel, from bible study, told me to read the Redemption series by Karen Kingsbury. So, I checked out the book from my church library and started to read it in my downtime last night. I got to page 130 something and I started to get worried that the book might not turn out like I wanted it to. So do you know what I did? I do this with a lot of books. I quickly flipped to the last two chapters and scanned until I could figure out how it was going to end. Get a grip Jenny...I said to myself out loud. The thing is...I hate surprises and suspense. If I can know the ending then I can stick with it.
I am probably the worlds most impatient person. I can remember back to my first year of marriage and how I read every Christian marriage book I could get my hands on. All it did was frustrate me because I wanted my marriage to look like the authors who had written the books and they had been married 30-40 years, not one. Impatience at its best.
I always need me a tall drink of the Holy Spirit.
On another note...I am so glad that Gods word tells us how things are going to turn out for the Kingdom. As I have been studying Moses I realized we are reading what happened in past tense but Moses didn't get the run down. He had to walk by faith in all his imperfections and God used him profoundly and was glorified when Moses fully surrendered to Him.
Isn't that like us though? We want to know how our life is going to turn out...but God calls us to walk by faith and not sight (2 Cor 5:7). He tells us to set our hearts on things above...to look to the author and perfecter of our faith...to set our gaze on Him. Our fix on Him and living in obedience to Him is what is going to get us to the finish.
The following verse is my prayer...that I would wait on Him instead of always rushing nervously up ahead:
5 I wait for the LORD, my soul waits,
and in his word I put my hope.
Deut. 32:4 He is the Rock, his works are perfect,
and all his ways are just.
A faithful God who does no wrong,
upright and just is he.