I'm still here

I want to run the race.
I want to finish strong.
I want to forget what is behind.
I want to press on.
I want to wear His banner over me
the banner of love...not the banner of shame over my past.
I want to fix my eyes on Jesus and throw off the sin that so easily entangles.
I want to believe God.
I want to love Him with all of my heart...withholding nothing from Him.
I want to KNOW him and the love that surpasses KNOWLEDGE.
I want to help snatch others from the flames.
I want to cast crowns at the feet of the One who is worthy.
I want to finish strong in the arms of my Heavenly Groom and glory in Him forever.
May it be said of you and me that this world was not worthy of us either because of our belief and faith in the One True God.

I read this on Bev's blog and it broke my heart. The world was not worthy of her sweet friend Cyd Mizell or Muhammad Hadi. I know their lives still speak and bring glory to our Father.

Hebrews 11:37-39

37They were stoned^[a]; they were sawed in two; they were put to death by the sword. They went about in sheepskins and goatskins, destitute, persecuted and mistreated— 38the world was not worthy of them. They wandered in deserts and mountains, and in caves and holes in the ground.

39These were all commended for their faith, yet none of them received what had been promised.

My computer has been acting crazy and I have not had much access to the Internet. I think I am back up.

Last night was our final night of Stepping Up. It was so good. My friend Amy passed out something from her church called breaking up the fallowed ground. It is a guide to repentance. I am taking it seriously because if anything is blocking me from God I want to renounce it and repent of it. I am only on the second step in the worksheet and I think it will take me a good week or so to examine myself in the way I need to (it is really a lifelong thing). I prayed last night that God would search me with the Spotlight of His Holy Spirit and the Word and that He would point out any offensive way in me. I asked Him to have His way even if He had to go back years with me that I would really be bare before Him. Hebrews 4:13 Nothing in all creation is hidden from God's sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account. Our body is a temple and we sort of tuck things away in closets in our souls and don't deal with them...and then our junk starts to deal with us and we don't begin to know where things went awry. So maybe you to need to get alone, get some paper and a pen, and ask God to search you as well. It is time to clean house spiritually speaking for me.

Hosea 6:3

3 Let us acknowledge the LORD;
let us press on to acknowledge him.
As surely as the sun rises,
he will appear;
he will come to us like the winter rains,
like the spring rains that water the earth."

Hosea 10:12
12 Sow for yourselves righteousness,
reap the fruit of unfailing love,
and break up your unplowed ground;
for it is time to seek the LORD,
until he comes
and showers righteousness on you.