Wednesday, February 20, 2008

another good one from walkintheword

I Want to Be Real

by Dr. James MacDonald

O LORD, you have searched me and known me!

You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways. Even before a word is on my tongue, behold, O LORD, you know it altogether. You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high; I cannot attain it. Psalm 139:1-6

I don't know how else to say it: hypocrisy is very serious.

Inside we're like this; outside we're like this. The gap between what people see and what's really inside us-that's hypocrisy. It starts off as a crease between what we appear to be and what we really are. It then becomes a crack and, if neglected, it becomes a canyon between us and God.

I want my life to be different. I don't want to pose for anyone. I don't want to take up some position in my life to match anyone's expectations.

I was praying about it this week for my own life and wrote this prayer. This is for God, but I'll just share it with you to encourage you in your passion of authenticity.

I Want to Be Real

I want to be real. I don't want to force it or fake it or fix it after the fact.
I just want to be real.

I want to operate from truth, not from pressure to please or perform for people. I don't want to choose from fear of what others will think of me or of my motives. I want to choose what I know is right because it's good and because it pleases You.
Help me, God. I want to be real.

I have the information mostly. I know I'm supposed to read and pray, and I know about worship, too. I know I'm supposed to witness and work for the kingdom, and I know about loving others more than myself. Oh, yeah, I know all the stuff. I know nearly everything I'm supposed to know, and most of all I know that knowing is not enough, because it doesn't displace the denial in my heart.
Help me, God. I want to be real.

By real, I mean ready, filled with anticipation when I arrive at Your house to worship You, heartfelt worship. Yeah, that's real.

By real, I mean ready with thanks for the cascade of blessings raining down on my head in this and every moment, genuine gratitude. Yeah, that's real.

By real, I mean an easy choice of obedience to silence my demanding flesh which calls me to choose what You lovingly forbid, obedient holiness. Yeah, that's real.

By real, I mean ready to be generous to people in need, not hoarding or hiding or helping out of guilt. Yeah, giving freely and continuously. That's real for sure.

Help me God. I want to be real.


Lori said...

Thanks for sharing your prayer. I really enjoyed it and read it to the husband.

BethAnne said...

Oh I want to be real and be real all the time!

jennyhope said...

this is so james macdonald and not me...
he is such a good teacher!

Rachel said...

Real is my theme. Your heart is known by God and he hears your prayer! Thanks for sharing this!

*sidebar* I was forced to memorize all of Psalm 139 in the 6th grade. Now I practice reciting it and still know it to this day. I believe it helped me in the area of intimacy with Christ and self-confidence. I'm going to help my girls memorize it too!

Sherry said...

Girl, I love the sushi! But mine is cooked! But... I'll eat it raw! :)

Thanks for James!!!

Fran said...

"I want my life to be different. I don't want to pose for anyone."

So good. so good. Real. Be real.
Why can that be so hard sometimes?

Leigh said...

We should all strive to be real in our walk with God.As always, great post Jenny. Hop eyou are feeling good. Thinking of you.

Jessica said...

I can totally relate. Being real and present everyday is so important to me. I struggle with spending time with people who put on airs and are fake- it is so hard for me to love those people, and God is always at work in my heart over that sin I stuggle with. Being real is the only way to truly have a real, pure, and tangible relationship with God. Kuddos to you for a great post!

NYC said...

Amen, I want to be real all the time too.. May God grant us the strength to be real.

Bev Brandon said...

And sometimes people don't want us to be real around them for they have so deadened their own desires in order to make life work---not good. Loved this word. We are in Austin for weekend.
My husband is preaching.
WE LOVE AUSTIN!!!!!!!!!!
I am on a mad hunt for Chris Tomlin...when I get to worship with that guy...OH MY...I hope my street is near his in heaven!!!!
Praise God He is so breaking through in me this dark week and I am finding a rest I have not known!!! So grateful over here and such a far way to go and look how old I am!

Kim said...

My prayer daily is that I will be real. That nothing about me will fake or a put on. Thank-you so much for sharing this!

Anonymous said...

being real! that is always my goal..and sweet thang you are very real to me, its one of the things I love about visiting you, Darla