Wednesday, January 2, 2008

My firstborn

I wasn't going to do this but I changed my mind. Here is a picture of my first born Shelby Hope (I hope you can handle it). Today was her due date a few years I always think of her today and can't wait to see her when I get to see Jesus face to face.
I am not doing this so anyone will feel sorry for me...I am okay. It is just the way I express myself. =)
other posts about shelby HERE and HERE


Jessica said...

Oh Jenny! Shelby is just gorgeous! I know you must love and think of her more than anyone could ever know or understand. I admire you for celebrating her on your blog! She is and will always be your daughter and when you meet her again, you will be her mother- full of love for Shelby! : ) God bless you! Thanks for sharing such an important part of your life with me!


Leigh said...

Jenny, I completely understand you. I lost three babies to miscarriage. But like you, I know that the Lord has a special place in Heaven for them and that the homecoming one day will be a beautiful & joyous one.
Indeed, you have an angel looking over you!! You are an inspiration for many reasons, but this is just one more, for you use the "homecoming" of your first born to minister to others who might feel a loss. It takes a special person and soul and I can see that is your way. You are a true blessing.
Peace be with you and my foreveer prayers. I hold your hand in (kinship) in this.

Leigh said...

My prayers are with you and your fmaily. I know that the day is still a hard rememberance. I pray for you.

jennyhope said...

thank you guys so much seriously. You are so sweet. I just couldn't resist. and Leigh I am so so sorry about your own loss. That had to be so hard and discouraging!

twinkle said...

Love is an unseen force mightier than any typhoon or tornado. It breaks down WALLS. It breathes LIFE into dead souls. Do you hear that, Jennyhope? One day, THE WORD will breathe life into Jennyhope and you will see her perfected in Christ. I firmly believe that she was knit together in your womb by her Creator. Her life had an impact that she may even be rewarded for in glory. I have that hope. Live life in a way that honors her. The greatest legacy the death of a loved one can bring to those left behind is a life transformed to focus more aggressively towards the reality of eternity. In Christ. In heaven. He is Love made flesh. He is Love that has overcome death. Thank you for the opportunity to share in this special time with you. We are soul sisters, girl. And it does matter to me that this was your precious baby. It is going to be a Happy New Year because you are passionate about your Christ and He loves you more than life. May He bless you abundantly this year.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry for your loss...but I rejoice with you that sweet Shelby is with Jesus! May the Holy Spirit be with you and comfort you Jenny! I can't even fathom...
Love You,

Heather said...

Praying for you girl! She is precious! What a day it will be when you see her together with Jesus!

Little Steps Of Faith said...

Hey girlie:) Its a freezing FL morning, but I had to comment:)
How I just love you dear friend:)
Your friendship has helped heal me of this similar experience.
Its the little things girl:)
You never know what God will do with what you've gone through:)

I will write you more later on, but I felt I would say that to you:)

Thank you for your faith in JESUS:)

Your friend in Christ Always:)


HisTreasuredPossession said...

Jenny, since I'm new to your blog I hadn't known about Shelby. I am so encouraged by how the Lord ministered to you and am wiser now to minister to others. God bless you!!

darla said...

Jenny, I love you, and I love how Jesus holds you so close to HIM, and how HE smiles at you with each post, you truly do hold HIM out for others to see.

My friend is going through something similar..she has a couple months before Janessa will be born, but she is only expected to have a few minutes with her. How I lift her and you and anyone else that has lost someone so small..God really did deliver them from this cursed world, but healing is the way we learn to know HIM and love HIM,and hide in HIM..girl you may just be my earthly hero! :)

Fran said...

Shelby is just beautiful Jenny! My due date for our first born that we lost was January 3rd. I will always remember that day too.

I pray that God continue to give you the peace and strength with each day and time you think about that precious daughter.

You will have eternity together and there is nothing sweeter than that.

I love ya!

Michelle Bentham said...


Thank you for your kind words on my blog. They come from a heart that know my kind of loss. I am deeply sorry to learn we have this in common, but grateful to know our God is getting you through. Your baby is so beautiful. Shelby I am sure came to you for a reason that God will make clear in His own time. Hang onto Him. I know you said you are doing okay, but please know you are in my prayers - the pain never quite goes away, at least that is what I have found in my own loss.

Well, I will close for now... feel free to email me if you like.


pinkmommy said...

I cannot imagine how difficult it must have been to hold your tiny baby then lose her.

I am praying for you today.

Charity said...

Jenny...I am so sorry that you had to read my news so close to this special day! Shelby is absolutely gorgeous! I can't imagine what you went through. It breaks my heart for you! But, life here without her is just a flash in the pan compared to the eternity you will share with her one day. I will be praying for you! Thanks for sharing.

Love you girl!

P.S. can't wait till you come up my way! keep me posted!

BethAnne said...

Won't it be awesome to see her in person alive and well? I cannot imagine how much it hurt for you to lose her, but I do know that the reunion will be worth all the pain you experienced here on this earth. Funny how we love our kids so much we would die for them - funny how God feels that way about us. What a wonderful reunion you have to look forward to. I bet you think about it alot.
I know that no man knows the day or the hour, but sister, I firmly believe you will get to see her VERY VERY soon! I am excited for you.

Tam said...

Thank you for posting this Jenny! It exhibits your strength and healing and courage as well. I agree, Shelby is beautiful...and how much more beautiful she must be in the presence of her Father - I can picture her now, looking like a little angel running in freedom waiting for her mama! Praise God that we will be reunited again!!!

I love you Jenny Hope!

Teri said...

She is beautiful Jenny! And you my friend are an amazing example of the mercy of our God.

Thank you for sharing your precious one with us.


jennyhope said...

y'all are so precious to me. Thank you so much for all of your comments and sweet words. you have no idea what each of you have meant to me. much love!!!

wornoutwoman said...

Oh what a sweet little girl. Thank you for sharing this. I can't imagine having to deal with this, but I'm glad you have the reassurance that you'll see her again one day.

Bev Brandon said...

Oh! Jenny, I missed this post yesterday, I don't know how I did. I did bloglines on you but it doesn't work...

Floods of memories come over me in reading your story...went back and read through previous posts. I have stood by the side of good friends who lost their babies at birth and watched them bury their babies. No words to describe. I can't imagine what you went through but I have to ask---how did you get to the beautiful place in your heart of trusting, living open handed, childlike faith. You so honor HIM with your story, your words, your hopes. You are a walking miracle Jenny Hope! I lost more than one to miscarriage Jenny. They are all safe in His Arms. I am holding your story in my heart. Holding your face. Holding your words. What you have embraced is why you experience your God so powerfully. Beautiful life of trust. Beautiful post Jenny Hope!

He Knows My Name said...

i started a comment and i think i got side tracted. i showed my husband and he shed some tears. she is absolutely beautiful. i've been thinking about her since yesterday. she already knows ALL that we only hope to know in our finite minds. we study so diligently to glean what we can she is already complete and the mysteries/wonders have been revealed to her. jenny i am so glad you shared this with us. i am blessed to know you both. God has blessed you with strength and grace.

Faith @ The Great Adventure said...

Wow ... so tiny and so beautiful! Thank you for sharing a picture of your precious daughter with us.

connorcolesmom said...

She is so pretty.
I know you look forward to seeing her smiling face in Heaven.
Thank you for sharing her with us :)
God bless you my sweet friend.

Toknowhim said...

Powerful post... The picture says it all. Thank you for sharing. I think it was Brave. Blessings!!

Anonymous said...

Jenny, I am a friend of Miranda Garrison...i recently lost a baby girl to words are so encouraging...i have enjoyed reading each day...thank you

jennyhope said...

Oh Courtney my heart aches for you. I am so so sorry. Are you the one that works with Miranda? Words truly fail me. It is one of the hardest things that you have had to go through. Please let me know if there is ever anything I can do. I am so sorry Courtney. love jenny

Anonymous said...

It has been hard...but i know that it will get better. I am an SLP like Miranda. She has been so nice. I'm so glad she emailed me your blog. Your little girl is precious. I know you are so thankful for Morgan. I hope one day soon that God will bless us with another child. I am trying to be patient because i know that it will be God's timing. Thank you again for all of your encouraging words!