Breaking Free Taping in New Orleans

2 Samuel 7:18

David's Prayer

18 Then King David went in and sat before the LORD, and he said:
"Who am I, O Sovereign LORD, and what is my family, that you have brought me this far?


About 10 years ago (1999) my mom called me and said that there were some ladies starting a bible study at our church and asked me if I wanted to come. I said yes...and the rest of my years have been the most life altering years of my entire life. I started Breaking Free by Beth Moore.

The church I attended was small and lets just say you didn't even bring your bible to church. So a bible study was rare. I only even had a King James version of the bible. So, I went out and purchased an NIV study bible in paperback. At this time I was already driving 45 minutes to go to another church which is my home church for the last decade.

As I sat there in that room watching the Holy Spirit teach through Beth...I whispered a prayer to God that I wanted whatever it was that she had. I had never witnessed the power of the Holy Spirit through His word or seen anyone that passionate about God.

I have done breaking free at least 6 or 7 times since then. No one has had the impact on my life as far as discipleship goes like that woman. She has NEVER done anything but point me to Christ.

Long story short: I have been invited to go with Tammy (GratefulinGA) to the taping in New Orleans. I had prayed several weeks ago for the Lord to give me some time with Him that wasn't so rushed...time away. I didn't even think it was possible that I could go. Never considered it. Then, I looked at the cost of flights...I found a special round trip ticket for 99 dollars tax and all. That is all I am having to pay to go. I can not believe the Lord's provision and how He even orchestrated me meeting Tammy.

She and I got to talking in San Antonio and she asked me how many children I had. I can't leave Shelby out because she is in heaven...so I told her two but that one was in heaven...and that I am ok. Then, she proceeded to tell me that her 24 year old daughter died 3 years ago and I began to cry. She told me that because of Christ she is ok. We talked some more and she walked around with me while the "freak magnet" also known as me attracted some strange people. Note to self...it is not good to be on the riverwalk at midnight in Texas.

So, only heaven knows the impact that these studies have had on me and how profoundly my life has been touched. The Lord reminded me in my Spirit of my prayer and that this was the answer.

I have got some more breaking free to do ;)

Again, prone to wander Lord I feel it...prone to leave the God I love...here's my heart Lord take and seal it...seal it for thy courts above.

Why He has not left me or forsaken me...I will never know.

I deserve nothing.

I just cry out Lord better is one day in your courts than a thousand days elsewhere...my heart and flesh cry out for you the Living God. I will draw near to You Lord...I will draw near to You.


psalm 84
10 Better is one day in your courts
than a thousand elsewhere;
I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God
than dwell in the tents of the wicked.