Yes people...Jenny has lost it.

Well, I can't sleep. I had 4 hours the night before and 3 tonight. Since I have the ulcers I can no longer take NSAID's and now I have to take me some Midol...wink wink...if you know what I mean.

Lately, the dialog between me and the Lord has been about faith and obedience. They pretty much go hand and hand. There are some areas where the Lord wants me to up the ante (is that just a southern phrase? Here is the idiom form if it is: (idiom) To make something more desirable.) and believe Him and obey. Without faith it is impossible to please Him.

Here is the part where I may lose people and you may think I am weird forever but that is OK.
Last night, I got home REALLY late. I am not sure why but it was really on my heart to just walk every inch of my home and pray over it. Not only that, just a symbol between the Lord and I, I got some extra virgin olive oil (no, I wasn't about to bake Him any unleavened bread) and I went around to every door, window, television, computer, and dipped my finger in the oil and would say a prayer and mark each of those places with a cross. I am sure Rod is going to wonder when he gets home why in the world there is oil on the computers and tv's. I realize there is no power in the oil and I was doing nothing superstitious but that I wanted to acknowledge before the Lord that I wanted my whole home to be invaded with His Holy Spirit. Last but not least around 1 am I went to my baby and put some oil on her head and prayed over her (I am sure you are thinking I am really weird and should have kept this to myself). Regardless of anything anyone tries to throw my way about how kids are just going to have to go astray...we all like sheep have gone astray...I am going to believe God for my child. The enemy did everything he could to keep her from getting here. he does not want godly seed. I am begging God every day that she would love Him and walk in His ways and have a heart that hungers and yearns for the Living God. I am very much living in reality but when pessimistic people want to come my way and tell me that she is just going to have to be like every other kid and blah blah blah...I am rebuking those words in Jesus name. I believe that we can still raise our kids to have a passion for God. I believe that there are teenagers who are still keeping themselves pure. God is working and pouring out His Spirit and I am praying that He will put a fire in that stubborn little girls bones for Him. So, I then put the oil in the shape of a cross on our foreheads and just acknowledged that we are His and that I desire to do His will and for me and my house we will serve the Lord. I seriously do not know where I would be apart from the Cross of Christ. The cross is enough for salvation and forgiveness. He made a way for all of us to be right with Him and without the power of the cross and the shed blood of Christ I could not stand. Praise You Lord.
I thought well, me and Morgs may wake up with our foreheads broken out in the shape of a cross but oh well, right. There was my vanity.
As I prayed I thanked the Lord for passing over us and having mercy on us because of the blood of the lamb. As I did this I thought about the passover and just told Him that I was doing this as a symbol of what He told His children to do with putting blood over their door posts (I doubt anyone is reading at this point) and knowing that me and my family can do nothing if we are not consecrated (set apart) for Him and we can do nothing without His Spirit empowering us with everything for life and godliness. I am believing God for my family and let me tell you...He has brought us a mighty long way so far. God has done such a work in my life and my marriage that He alone gets the glory due.

Ask God to help your unbelief and believe Him for your family and for your own life even if you feel you are to messed up to still be used by Him. THAT IS A LIE.

So this morning, I opened my inbox and read THIS by Greg Laurie. So good.

I hope you have a great day and that He will be the delight of your life. I pray that He would be High and Lifted Up before our eyes and that our small views of God would be dispelled. He loves us so.

Oh NO!! I just saw the "I've fallen and I can't get up" commercial. When we fall in our daily living and walk with the Lord, get back up and stand at the cross knowing that the Lamb of God takes away the sins of the world and removes our sins from us as far as the east is to the west.

p.s. I get to the Salon yesterday and they said oh darlin' Cindy is not here. Well, I was like oh they scheduled me an appointment. She asked me if I wanted to come back and I said no, I drove 40 minutes. Well, they had actually scheduled me with one of the owners of the salon...who I love. She did such a good job on my hair. No bad haircut against me prevailed...lol!