Sunday, June 24, 2007

A Call to the Carpet

Why on earth do I share everything? I guess I hope that someone can relate and feel as if they are not alone with hard times on planet earth. For those of you that pretty much have a wonderful life, marriage, family, health and etc, with little to no trials...bless you and I am glad for you. That is just not my life so I probably won't be able to relate to you much. After my last post last night I read a few verses and went to try and go to sleep. I could not shut my mind down so I got up and began to get the party decorations out for today. Then I really sensed that the Lord wanted me to pray. I needed to get real with Him for my sake. He already knows everything so I wasn't telling Him anything that He didn't already know. I just needed to unload. I read a quote the other day on a girls myspace that said "It's not the load that breaks you down, it's the way you carry it." Well, we weren't meant to carry heavy loads people!! We have a Saviour that is ENOUGH and He says to come to Him. (Matthew 11:28 "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.")
I got on the carpet and began to just unload my heavy heart to the Lord (I really wish I could go into details but I am not at liberty to do so). I began to cry (of course) and beg the Lord to do a work in me and in another situation that has been ongoing for years now. I got so worked up in my prayer that I threw up twice. Seriously! I finally went to sleep around 3ish. I woke Rod up with the throwing up and he asked me what was wrong. I really didn't want to go into it so I told him I was tired and I couldn't sleep. Then he proceeded to lecture me as to why I was off of my sleep pattern and how I needed to get back on it. Don't you love it? Men will always try to help you solve your problem...even in the middle of the night. It really made me laugh.

So on to the party today!! I can't wait to download some pics but I can not find my usb cable. I will turn the place upside down and find it tomorrow. Rod says that I lost it...but I can PROMISE you it was him. I am not sure how I get blamed for everything but I do! Morgan had a wonderful time. I am still not sure if she understood why people were here, why they were leaving, or why she got toys. Anyway, she decided to go swimming in her baby pool once everyone got here so we had to start the cupcakes without her. Then we got some good quality time with her little boyfriend Jackson, along with my mom and my sweet little brother Will. I love Will so much. I am almost 12 years older than him so I feel like I have missed out so much on his life. I moved out of our house when he was six. He is so precious. He is now so much taller than me...I can't believe it! My mom and him hung out with us and then I decided that we needed to go get the Queen some Mexican food. She loves Cozumel Restaurant (not Cozumel Mexico...I went their last summer...if you haven't been you aren't missing much. I rode a motorcycle all around that island and there was nothing to see.) and when she walked in most of the staff greeted her as usual. They all love her. They sang happy birthday to her and we really thought she was going to cry. Thank you Lord for the whip cream they gave held her off. I ate so much of my dinner that I thought I was going to puke. Each time the waitress came to the table she hit the button on her new Dora backpack! She is so funny! We just got home and she snuggled up to me and went to sleep. Thank you Jesus for this precious girl!!!! Until tomorrow. :)


Alissa said...

I can not tell you in enough words how much your blogs touch my heart. Thank you for sharing your heart because you have inspired me so many times in ways I can not describe. Your honesty is filled with God's glory.

pinkmommy said...

I just wrote thanks for sharing your heart, but then I saw the comment before said the very same thing! I guess that just proves that you are doing exactly that. You are not afraid of being real with us...thanks so much!

Can't wait to hear about the party!

connorcolesmom said...

I think so many people think that if we are Christians then we have no problems. It is just not true. We are all in this together. When we are Christians we have our savior who is there for us and helps us through.

I had a tough year all last year. I have IBS and last year it was so bad I could hardly go anywhere (I would get sick 4-5 times a day). I was desperate and went to the Dr. He prescribed some medicine that helped but I still had so many issues with it. It truly tested my quality of life.

Then God called me to lead Bible Study and I was scared not only b/c I am terrified of public speaking but b/c I never knew when I had to run to the bathroom!!

I so feel your pain. Life is not easy!! God is our refuge and strength. He is always there for us!! He never leaves us!!
Thank you God!!

I will pray for release of this trial that you are under.
You can always call me if you need someone to talk to :)